I'm skinnyfat, don't know what to do, feel down, and Borderline depressed.

[AndS]

Here I am. A pathetic waste of space.

Everymorning I wake up, sit on the edge of my bed and look down ad my stomach and see a roll of disgusting fat. Worthless human I am.

I'm 24, socially awkward, unable to speak. and when I do speak I stutter so much I look stupid and blush.

I'm starting to go bald, I have crease marks around my face which are slowly becoming more visible over time.

I'm whats known as " skinny Fat " and I suck at everything.

I have not 1 single friend and nobody to speak to. It feels like my whole world is just me and my thoughts.

I come home from work and spend the whole day in my room watching movies, on the computer, reading books and painting figurines.

I have 0 confidence in myself, I don't want to do anything and I'm afraid to spend money.

I constantly Focus on negative thoughts about past experiences, and my future... that's always bleak.

Everywhere I go I'm in constant reality check mode.

I can't enjoy movies any more or enjoy music.

When I went to watch the avengers I didn't get into the movie and didn't laugh at any of it. I sat there thinking " these humans are getting paid millions to play a role, and us - the stupid consumers - get only moments of joy "

I never let myself go and get fully enticed in a movie, because I feel like I'm getting conned. Is it just part of growing up?

Music too. every lyric I hear.. I answer back at it saying " stop boasting, stop showing off, you're only doing this for the money you liars ".

ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

I HATE EVERYTHING.

I have a very pessimistic and bleak outlook on life, not suicidal (the idea has cropped up once or twice before) just bleak and I want to change because it is getting me no were fast. And I want to be a 1/2 full kind of guy. I'm expecting many people on here to tell me to " think of the positives in life "

and I'm already getting pictures of vomiting into a bucket. There's no escape.

I believe in realism. I partly blame my dad. From a young age he made me watch movies like Tora Tora Tora and pushed that " Japanese strictness " way of life as being the best there is blah blah blah. DIRECT. FIRM. HARDNESS. STRICT.....

He never allows me to spend money. For years I've wanted a new car and he tells me I'm moving out soon and I can't afford it. So I don't spend anything.

even at work when someone asks me a questions I just reply with a simple " yeah haha " or " nah I don't think so ".. " yeah okay I'll do it "

Just a systematic person with no personality. I'm mr negative and Mr Boring to my peers.

I'm so quiet at work that my team mates are asking me " Why you so quiet for? " nearly every other day.

I have 0 confidence in myself, and everything I do. I'm paranoid, as soon as I hear the smallest giggle, I think someones mocking me for something and I'm the butt of all jokes.

I constantly lick my lips and check my clothes. Whenever my managers ask's me a question I'm not sure of I blush and try to change the subject.

I'd be seated normally at my desk and when someone says something to me I have a smile on my face out of sheer embarrassment. Although under my desk I'm tensing my legs so much they're begging to hurt. My feet are curled under and the pen I'm gripping is moments from snapping....

and onceeee againnn all my pathetic brain has to come up with is a stupid giggle to try and deflect attention away from me.

I don't know what to do. I don't even know why I'm posting it on this website.

It's 12:30, I've got to be up for work in 6 hours but who cares. It's a constant cycle of the sams sh1t over and over again. going nowhere fast.

I don't get ANY pleasure. from ANYTHING really. Honestly I don't remember the last time I felt real joy.

I'm a passionate football fan ( soccer ).. but over the course of the last 2 years, I recognized money is why certain teams are winning.

I'm a jack of all trades, and a master of nothing.

I feel like if I had a good body, people would noticed me and respect me more, but for now I'm stuck with my crap body, crap bone structure, crap genetics, crap girly voice.

I know this is a forum about bodybuilding/steroids/nutrition etc etc so I might as well ask.. if you had my body ( see above ) what would you do? Should I cut even more - EVEN THOUGH I'VE BEEN DOING IT ALREADY FOR ALMOST 6 MONTHS AND I'VE STILL GOT THIS FAT!

I'm so sluggish. I can't even be bothered to open my mouth when I talk.

I have a supreme Loss of interest or pleasure from things. I have severe feelings of worthlessness and recently I've been having reoccuring thoughts of death

[AndS]

I'm unable to post a picture.

[AndS]

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I can't even show you how my crap body is.

[leather daddy]

chin up bro. Bulk. Put on musle. eat clean. lots and lift heavy and hard. I started training in highschool in year 7 the gains i made were ****ing awesome. i to was skinny fat. i didnt follow a diet. i didnt eat clean but for some reason i trained hard and my body transfored. lol i was traiaing arms 5x a week hahaha then i added in chest/back/legs etc and made awesome gains bro. Lift heavy mate.

[GORILLAslap]

STOP CRYING

i used to weigh 300lbs, you onley need to lose maybe 25-30lbs

thats easy with dedication and a diet

you can just eat clean and do some cardio and you WILL lean up

be POSITIVE!!!!!!!! THATS THE KEY

[C-BuZz]

Fkin man up. Stop crying like a baby, get your ass to the gym & start squatting.

[GORILLAslap]

you gotta WHAMburger with those french CRIES!!

GYM IT bro, start reading threads in the nutrition and lifting threads

[Lil man]

Apparently many don't understand depression. I'm not here to discredit anyone or their beliefs. But, I know somewhat how you feel. I have a thread under member pictures myself of how I looked about 5-6 years ago. I felt the same way. I was not blessed with good genetics myself but bro, you and only you can change how you look. There is no magic pill or workout plan. You cannot replace sweat. Get in the gym. Get some earphones and bust your ass. Your confidence will come and you'll see a change in your self over time. It's gonna take longer than a year. Longer than two maybe even three years but in the end you will love it!! I have a long ass way to go but everyone has a certain potential. You'll most likely never look like jay cutler or Ronnie but you have a potential. Every bad meal and every day you stay outta the gym is setting your potential a little further from attainment. You have to be disciplined and make yourself workout when you don't want to no matter what and eat CLEAN. Quit eating fast food and drinking cokes and shit. Read threads in the nutrition section and get to work bro!

[freshmaker]

Have you seen a counselor or psychiatrist? You sound much more than borderline depressed. It couldn't hurt to talk to an expert.

[< <Samson> >]

Well, bro. . . If this is real, so many trolls around.

Chin up, it's all in your head.

You don't have anything bad to deal with. Not really anyways. Talk to a cancer patient, see what they say.



Life is what you make it.

Figure out what you want in life and from yourself.


I been through some things that I would not wish upon my worst enemy(well maybe). Now, I look back and I am happy I went through it. If it wasn't for that awful shit, there is no way I would be as strong as I am today.

Bald - Who gives a shit, I been bald since 22.




There are some good forums online that can help you deal with your inner turmoil. But, it comes down to you. . . .

Good luck brother, no one (well almost no one) deserves to feel like shit.


There are plenty of people who wish they had what you take for granted.

[JAB1]

I agree you def sound very depressed. Counsiling may help.. Otherwise do as suggested, get to gym and kick the shit outta yourself. Youd be amazed at how good a little real pain can make you feel. Join a muay thai gym. Jump in both feet. They will take it slow with you but put you beyond your comfort level. I dont think any of us here are qualified to help you other than give some words of encouragement and explain what helps us. I cannot slack of or I become depressed. Not really sure why, but I need to always be pushing my comfort levels and putting myself through physical pain to be truly happy. I choose to do it in positive ways like lifting and training high level muay thai, etc. If I take a few days of I start to spiral, my wife will call me out and tell me to get back on track. Its that immediate and obvious for me. Life gets interesting quick when you are etiher preparing, in the middle of, or healing from physicla pain. It can change your life man. You just gotta get up tommorrow and go for it. The first day is the hardest, just keep pushing and you may find yourself free of your current prison...even if it hurst and scares you, at least you will feel something again.....and thats a beautiful thing my man!!

[< <Samson> >]

Best words of encouragement I found so far "first day of the rest of your life" - Deep, I know.

[Ishallnocheatmyself]

Ive got some idea of where your coming from, what you need to do is get in the gym and let everything , every feeling you have come out in the weights, you'll never wanna stop because of how much better you feel about your self just from working out. Your caught in a rut but take little steps and its very reversable. You may not be in current contact with many people to socialize but you'd be suprised who remembers you from your past hit one of them up on facebook or what ever and ****in hang out. Doing it is alot easier than the thinking and worrying about doing it 90% of the time. Don't over think stuff just let life happen, best you can do is put yourself in a better position by experiencing things

[bigga4068]

Come one bro you gotta find that inner strength to get off your butt. I know how ur feelingcuz I used to be a fat blob at over 350lbs. I dont know exactly what I weighed because I stopped weighing myself for years. I realistically prolly was well over 400. Then one day I decided Im going to try eating better, next came working out harder, next came doing cardio. I had to really oush myself thru that first month becuz it was that time when I wud wanna quit alot but after that first month it became routine and I was hooked. After only 9 months I was down to 217lbs meaning I lost whowever much I really dont know and I did it without gastric bypass surgery and to be honest it was that hard. There wasn't weeks that I would loss 10-15lbs of solid fat not water but fat. so what I'm try to say to ya ya gotta make a change and for starters it can be the little change. Make goals but make then realistic goal. Dont make the goal that I want to look like so n so. Make a goal like I want to go to the gym 5 times a week for 4 consecutive weeks and if your at all intimidated by the people in your gym don't be because theres 2 groups there. 1 group is of the people that are true gym rats and take it very seriously and that group is gonna look at you and say good job for getting started we all started somewhere. The 2nd group is gonna people just like you the ones just getting started now some of those people might have been there for a lil while and in their heads they think they know it all but group 1 knows the truth and can bash them down anytime they want plus those know it alls from group 2 prolly look like crap anyway because they spend to much time flapping their gums in the gym instead of working out. Push urself hard thru 1 month and I gaurantee you'll be hooked.

Quality over Quantity!

bigga

[13brew]

If your are starting to go bald then make sure you are getting enough Saw palmetto in your diet. 95% of baldness is caused by high DHT levels, do some research. High DHT could also mean low free T in your body, hence your poor body composition (high body fat, low muscle weight). Even most doctors are dumb as dogshit when you talk to them about baldness, they usually tell you there is no cure.

[rvca]

Chase the pain man. u will never catch it...and u will always enjoy the thrill of the chase

[Shol'va]

Either a troll or a very loud cry for help and if it's the latter I wish him well. Depression is a mean disorder to have to deal with alone. And I think most of us get it some time in our lives. But it's what we do and how we handle it that makes or breaks us. One can either avoid his problems or face up to them and fight back. I choose to fight back and I've had to deal with a lot of crap over my short life. suicide rates are way higher for my group. There's an old saying Don't Let The Bastards Get You Down...

[MrMayhem]

My wonderful asian girlfriend said... "Dont be depressed. You're a great writer." But hey, I been exactly where you are. Get a mistress..... THE IRON MISTRESS. She'll save ur life. When u get angry and pissed at the world.... Go hit those weights. Do those push ups. Do those crunches... RUNNING was another great outlet.

But back to that "Iron Mistress." She's the best thing goin. She'll hold u up, be there for u forever, nvr tlk back, nvr complain, she wont even care if u abuse her! Great huh?

And as far as "cutting" goes... Im assuming u mean tryin to cut fat.... Eat as much as u can, but make sure ur eatting the right things, like veggies, protein shakes, Chicken, fish, steak, egg whites, brown rice, protein bars, look at the nutrition forum for more or hit me up.

I'd be happy to try n help u out.

[BigPimpin76]

here i am. A pathetic waste of space.

Everymorning i wake up, sit on the edge of my bed and look down ad my stomach and see a roll of disgusting fat. Worthless human i am.

I'm 24, socially awkward, unable to speak. And when i do speak i stutter so much i look stupid and blush.

I'm starting to go bald, i have crease marks around my face which are slowly becoming more visible over time.

I'm whats known as " skinny fat " and i suck at everything.

I have not 1 single friend and nobody to speak to. It feels like my whole world is just me and my thoughts.

I come home from work and spend the whole day in my room watching movies, on the computer, reading books and painting figurines.

I have 0 confidence in myself, i don't want to do anything and i'm afraid to spend money.

I constantly focus on negative thoughts about past experiences, and my future... That's always bleak.

Everywhere i go i'm in constant reality check mode.

I can't enjoy movies any more or enjoy music.

When i went to watch the avengers i didn't get into the movie and didn't laugh at any of it. I sat there thinking " these humans are getting paid millions to play a role, and us - the stupid consumers - get only moments of joy "

i never let myself go and get fully enticed in a movie, because i feel like i'm getting conned. Is it just part of growing up?

Music too. Every lyric i hear.. I answer back at it saying " stop boasting, stop showing off, you're only doing this for the money you liars ".

Arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

i hate everything.

I have a very pessimistic and bleak outlook on life, not suicidal (the idea has cropped up once or twice before) just bleak and i want to change because it is getting me no were fast. And i want to be a 1/2 full kind of guy. I'm expecting many people on here to tell me to " think of the positives in life "

and i'm already getting pictures of vomiting into a bucket. There's no escape.

I believe in realism. I partly blame my dad. From a young age he made me watch movies like tora tora tora and pushed that " japanese strictness " way of life as being the best there is blah blah blah. Direct. Firm. Hardness. Strict.....

He never allows me to spend money. For years i've wanted a new car and he tells me i'm moving out soon and i can't afford it. So i don't spend anything.

Even at work when someone asks me a questions i just reply with a simple " yeah haha " or " nah i don't think so ".. " yeah okay i'll do it "

just a systematic person with no personality. I'm mr negative and mr boring to my peers.

I'm so quiet at work that my team mates are asking me " why you so quiet for? " nearly every other day.

I have 0 confidence in myself, and everything i do. I'm paranoid, as soon as i hear the smallest giggle, i think someones mocking me for something and i'm the butt of all jokes.

I constantly lick my lips and check my clothes. Whenever my managers ask's me a question i'm not sure of i blush and try to change the subject.

I'd be seated normally at my desk and when someone says something to me i have a smile on my face out of sheer embarrassment. Although under my desk i'm tensing my legs so much they're begging to hurt. My feet are curled under and the pen i'm gripping is moments from snapping....

And onceeee againnn all my pathetic brain has to come up with is a stupid giggle to try and deflect attention away from me.

I don't know what to do. I don't even know why i'm posting it on this website.

It's 12:30, i've got to be up for work in 6 hours but who cares. It's a constant cycle of the sams sh1t over and over again. Going nowhere fast.

I don't get any pleasure. From anything really. Honestly i don't remember the last time i felt real joy.

I'm a passionate football fan ( soccer ).. But over the course of the last 2 years, i recognized money is why certain teams are winning.

I'm a jack of all trades, and a master of nothing.

I feel like if i had a good body, people would noticed me and respect me more, but for now i'm stuck with my crap body, crap bone structure, crap genetics, crap girly voice.

I know this is a forum about bodybuilding/steroids/nutrition etc etc so i might as well ask.. If you had my body ( see above ) what would you do? Should i cut even more - even though i've been doing it already for almost 6 months and i've still got this fat!

I'm so sluggish. I can't even be bothered to open my mouth when i talk.

I have a supreme loss of interest or pleasure from things. I have severe feelings of worthlessness and recently i've been having reoccuring thoughts of death

dude seek the lord!!!!! Remember, jesus didnt tap

[beerdogg]

Start a thread in the diet section and get that dialed in first.

[BigBadWolf]

and as far as "cutting" goes... Im assuming u mean tryin to cut fat....

epic!!!

[SaTyR]

You are in control of your life, if you really want to change you can. Everytime you have a burger or whatever in your hand, look at your stomach and realize it's not gonna get better. Throw that ****er in the garbage, go running, go biking, get ripped, go to bars, get to know lady's and get ****ing laid!

[Jaxkiller]

u gotta see the doctor, u have maniac drepression.

[Twin]

stop feeling sorry about yourself and do something about it. and your right, if u had a good body a lot of people would respect you more and more girls would be open to you. so stop being a depressed little baby doing nothing about it and learn to train and eat and get swole and aesthetic.

[brazilian10]

Depression is definitely not fun, I agree with the post above, chin up and hit the gym HARD bro, diet is key is as well. You sound like you're suffering borderline depression, have you ever considered a therapist? They helped me a lot man, gym + therapy your confidence will boost. Best of luck

[07backbreaker]

Wow. Just wow. You cant be serious..... do you freaking know how many people in this world SUFFER AND DIE EVERYDAY!!!!!!!........you think your life sucks... obviously you havent even cared to look at the world...MANY PEOPLE DONT EVEN HAVE A FREAKIN HOME......NO FOOD.....NO NOTHING...AND STILL HAVE THE WILL TO PUSH AND SURVIVE...... THEY WOULD CRY DOWN BEFORE YOU ON THEIR KNEES FOR A PAIR OF SHOES.....AND YOU BLAME YOUR FATHER??!!! WTF. YOU HAVE A MIND OF YOUR OWN......PEOPLE WITH NO PARENTS IN WORSE SITUATIONS WISED UP BETTER MORALLY...... AND YOU CARE ABOUT WHAT OTHER PEOPLE THINK OF YOU?!!!!
**** THEM!!!!! YOUR BORN ALONE AND DIE ALONE..... NO ONE WILL EVER CARE ABOUT YOU....THEY HAVE THEIR OWN LIFE.... YOU KNOW THE REASON WHY I LIFT? TO GET STRONG FOR MYSELF.... SCREW MY PHYSIQUE... THE ONLY THING YOU CAN DO ABOUT SOCIETY IS ACCEPT THEM.. AND HELP WHO HELPS U. AND IF THATS NO ONE THEN HELP PEOPLE ANYWAY WITH WHAT YOU CAN BECAUSE THATS WHAT MAKES YOU DIFFER.....GROW SOME BALLS DUDE IM FREAKIN 18 AND IM TELLING YOU THIS FOR CRYING OUT LOUD

[John Andrew]

Mate, I was 24 an alcoholic, 39kgs and wanted to die! The doctor gave me 3 months to live. I decided to live. I stopped drinking, started training stopped feeling sorry for my self and accepted the fact that I was the one who had the problem and I had the solution,

Now I am 56 I love life, I have won many power lifting comps, I train for my pleasure, I live a great life. I have been rich. poor, loved, unloved, and hurt so many times i cannot remember but always i remember one thing. I LOVE MY LIFE! I had to fight to become what I am. You want to get better, Just do it! Good luck, John

[Far from massive]

Yep seek help for sure. But keep in mind that the gym ( a good gym that is where people go to change their lives, unfortunatly there are many now where people go to show off or get laid. But look around and you will find a real one, particularly if you work out first thing in the morning) is one place you can go where you do not have to speak to people or interact, you will be motivated by the changes you see in yourself each day and as time goes on and others see your dedication they will slowly nod to you or ask if they can work in on a set and the next thing you know you will have some friends who could care less how much money you make, what you look like or whether you are socially inept.

Good luck,
FFM

PS if you posted this sincerly you are not a looser, you are someone with real problems that can be solved. If you on the other hand posted this for fun, thinking its cute to fool people who would seek to help others then you are truly a worthless **** and no one can save you from yourself.

[TheTimeIsNow]

LMao.. wow we all have issues but damn.. All i gotta say is "SHUT UP AND SQUAT"

[Rockin Z28]

the onyl one that can make a change is you, and the change in this business takes a long time..it's a marathon, not a race..just for reference, my avatar is actually me, and i used to be hugely obese, and constantly depressed

[Matt2380]

Rockin, you were a Fat guy before?

[silentlucidity]

PRAY and seek professional help first. You are not alone and there is help for you. You may need medication and there is no shame in this. Some people are born with this disorder and can be easily treated. Put your faith in the Lord and he will carry you when you can not carry yourself. Then when your mind is at ease, TRAIN HARD!!

[ClickClackBOOM]

Buck up bro! Life wouldn't be an experience if everything was handed to you. Get up and start creating your future!

[XxAndreaxX]

post some pictures, so we can see, wich kind of training, and diet you need, nothing is imposible, exept not dying

[TheS1tch]

Just cut more until ur ripped its much faster then going from skinny to bulky, then pop some fake tan, get tight fitting clothes and wear some shades it will instantly boost your looks and then pop some s#eroids for additional effect and after cpl months u will look great.

But as far as being shy and having shitty personality idk its prolly going to stay shitty ur sol. Ofc u can always try phsyciatrist if u like to waste $$ to lie down on a sofa and bitch to some dude about ur problems, u can do it on forums free lol.

I'm kind of in the simiar boat and I can tell u that u that looks can be improved but inside u will stay the same.

[Henryhill470]

Let's see some pics bro !!!!!!!

[BBJT200]

I used to feel the way you do. I got my ass into the gym and pushed, pushed, pushed, and dieted harder and harder and finally got somewhat cut. I struggled with weight coming back on and dropping for a long time, and just recently i've discovered i'm hypothyroid. My suggestions to you:

Get active...it will make you feel better. There are chemicals in your brain released when you exercise that will actually make you feel better.

Get your thyroid tested. Not just TSH, but make sure you get free and available t3 checked as well. Since starting my own regimine of thyroid treatment, my depression (similar to yours...just feeling completely passive and dead) went away after a few days of treatment.

I'd also suggest working with a counselor during all of this. It could only help.

[venturac]

Man up and get your ass in the gym! Think positive! Start running and eat lean. Lift weights. You'll lose some of that fat bro. Good luck

[BenjaminXCIII]

Hello SiR! You should think about the people who die against their will, people that are condemned to live in a wheel chair for the rest of their life's. Those people would give ANYTHING to be on YOUR "lame" shoes. You should be thankful for what you DO have. Life is God's gift to us, don't disrespect his Gift by throwing your life away.

You can do this BossMan! Your pumped!

[martymcfly85]

Head up bro! Im 5'7" 170 pounds and i used to weigh 270 pounds! I got down to 143 pounds in just a few short months. It took near perfect eating and hundreds of miles running and i still have a lil belly. But i feel 200%a better physically and mentally! Key is stay positive and you can do anything. That may sound lame but its true!