So since I made that thread when I was feeling good. I missed an injection last week. Ive split my injections up to 2x from 1x, and took my arimidex 0.5mgx 2 after the injection.
Anyways, the last few days ive been feeling horrible, not sure if its cos ive missed an injection last week, but I took my first shot of the week yesterday so trying to get back on track. Im not sure what my E2 is atm as im trying to guess, im trying to get to the docs to have bloods but im not sure if they will test for me as ive had bloods done a while ago.(****ing Australia) But ill try anyway. Ive been taking 0.5mg of armidix(liquid from source) x2 per week. Its supposed to be 1mg/ml but being not pharma grade it may be underdosed. Im trying to get a hold of pharma grade but from 1 source I know its 2x the price lol. Anyway as I said last few days ive been feeling average, so im not sure if my e2 is still to high or now to low. Im not sure if I should increase my arimidex to 1mgx 2 per week(as I said its liquid so could be well underdosed) or cut it back to 0.25mg x 2 per week or try eod. Really struggling here. As I said BW is the only option but I may not be able to get that for a little while yet.
Ive also for some reason lost motivation for the gym and to get big, and im really devastated, im pushing myself to go to the gym tho as I know its only my mind playing games with me but im shattered. I remember not to long ago I wanted to get bigger and bigger and eat more and eat, now im just like meh, whats the point. Im not going to give up though!. Im just lacking the drive and anger to do it! . Wanting to get back on a bulk but just making sure I feel 100% ready. I was going to start this week but delayed it again.
One real thing that drove me to be motivated for the gym was to get as big as I could so I could protect my missus from people. Now im lacking even that. I tell myself that but its not working. I tell myself to get big to protect my girlfriend and be a strong guy but its not working!![]()