i'm into week 5 of test / eq i'm working out during the week and sometimes on the weekends and i'm watching what i'm eating but i been having troubles escaping the darkside of my weekends. i live nears alot of bar and clubs, i know alot of the people in the town i live in and the otown next to me. i'm having i hard time staying away from my alcoholic abusing and drug using friends mainly because i live with one of them and my house it like grand central station every other night and moving out is not a option right now and saying no to a good time gets harder and harder. so i called an ex-chick and got her to let me stay at her house for a while or just long enough to get my head straight again. i'm really writing this for myself to put thing into perspective of what i doing and i think by writing,talking and thinking about it hopefully i'll start using better judgment. i don't want to waste my cycle..or be dumb shit.