Yeah, but im in college so it makes me feel so much worse.
I mean, ugh I just got my food and im coming back to my place and all these girls are dressed ready to go out to the clubs and im here trying to rush and eat my food lol.
Seriously, sometimes I feel like Im missing out on life, and I already did do the whole "break from working out" a while back and it was the worst time of my life. Like it was great getting hammered and being with girls and shit then you look in the mirror and you see what your becoming.
Ugh just thinking bout it makes me cringe, I lost so much self-confidence and I sat in bed at night just thinking over and over like "**** I want to rip off my skin and just force the muscle to get bigger" and tell myself how stupid I was for letting myself even lose 5 pounds just so I could get drunk and dance with whores.
But im not going to lie that sounds pretty good right now

hahaha