I was arrested tonight. They drew blood from me against my will. I cant stop drinking. IM so sorry. I cant stop drinking. IM so sorry. I want to stop. I want to stop. I want to stop.
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I was arrested tonight. They drew blood from me against my will. I cant stop drinking. IM so sorry. I cant stop drinking. IM so sorry. I want to stop. I want to stop. I want to stop.
"The Italian Stallion"
What?
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If not a joke, remember, you're only human bro. Live and learn.
"cool as shit and knows his stuff"
Ambien?Originally Posted by cherrydrpepper
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Nah I think he really does have an alcohol problem....
2 hands & 1 mouth :-)
Banned
Well that sucks.... AA and a support system
American Bedoo
Sounds to me like you need to move to Kuwait with me. We can get alcohol, but at the prices we pay for it may deter you from drinking. For example a bottle of black label in Dubai will cost $25 in kuwait it will cost $180.
Think about it and let me know
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CDP I've been there. Just a year ago I was picked up for a DUI, and that was the most sobering thing I've ever dealt with. The cost alone will make you so sick you won't even think about having another drink.
The attorney and court cost were right at 10k, I lost the job I had at the time because of the charge even before a conviction was in place. That put me out of work for about 2.5 months which cost me about another 10k from my retirement plan just to keep the bills paid. The only job I could find pays about 15-20k less than I was making bringing the grand total for all this a year later to near 40k dollars, and with the loss in salary I'll be looking at a loss of almost 100 grand over the next few years.
Not sure about you, but I've never found a drink worth that kind of money. For me it was the best rehab I could have gotten. You'll get yourself right in the end. It may mean dropping some friendships that aren't conducive to your sobriety, but you CAN beat the addiction. Just takes some time.
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You need to go to some meetings bro, pray maybe?
Three things will result if u continue
1. Imprisionment
2. Insanity
3. Death
It took all three for me and the 1st multiple x and the 3rd twice
Anabolic Member
why do they take blood?
isn't it just a breathalyzer?
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To check for other drugs
Snook~ AR Lounge Monitor
This would be the perfect time for me to come over and take advanta.... I mean console you.
Member
Hang in there buddy we all have our own struggles.
Have you ever though about getting help like a 12 step program?
Keep your head help high swallow your pride and get some help buddy.
Best of luck CDP.
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Here's hoping you get the help you need. OP have overcome addictions with the support of loved ones. You are going to have to change your lifestyle and even change some friends.
If you want it bad enuff. It's not easy but you can do it!!!!
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I am an alcoholic, I am 57 and have been sober for most of the last 33 years. I tried a couple of cures I heard about!!! They did not work.
When I first found out about the problem I went to AA and I stopped, after 3 years of AA I decided if the choice was sobriety the AA way or death I would choose death.
Obviously not only but millions like me have discovered, yes you need help to get off the stuff, staying sober and enjoying life is then up to you and you choose your way. I am not of the opinion that 12 step programes work, in fact I think they can kill people. You do not need God, you need help and a new lifestyle.
Get help now, sort out your life slowly, be kind to yourself. You have a problem, you are not dead. If you stop drinking you can have a wonderful and happy life. A life that is better than you could ever imagine. Good luck and kindest regards, John
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Ill pray. Addiction sucks and people need to know others are there for them and know what its like. Good luck cherry.
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CDP been there, done it dude. and im not just talking a guy who got one DUI and decided that was enuff for me to quit either. i got 3 DUIs in less than 2 months and it didnt even slow me down.. seriously addicted, as in got a 12 pack planning just to drink it and still being drunk 10days later plus on a bunch of other drugs, driving and not remembering, having all kinds of bad stuff happen, going thru withdrawal and having to go to detox centers to come off because the withdrawal was too bad for me to physically and mentally get thru it.
i hated drinking and couldnt imagine my life without it at the same time. went to AA and it didnt do crap for me. all that sitting around in there talking about drinking and listening to those other people just made me sick. not to mention seeing other sober people and knowing i could not do what they were doing made me feel like a failure. i was freaking desperate! also had close brushes with death and getting arrested didnt mean crap to me. almost lost my job, wife, family would not talk to me and hated to see me coming.
finally in the end i turned to the Lord. believe me i didnt like the idea at first. and "at first" was not when i decided to give God a chance. that didnt happen until i had exhausted all possible other resources and lived a life in mental and physical punishment for years.. it took years man, of pain and descending to depths of grief i didnt know were even possible. i was not always a believer or even one who would consider God and was actually the opposite. i cursed God and didnt even know if i believed in Him. people who tried to tell me about God i did not find to be credible because i assumed anyone talking to me about God had always lived the opposite kind of life as me. a good life. i was wrong.. i have met as many people like me as a christian as i had as a non-christian.
i didnt turn to God because i was such a good person who always did the right thing. i turned to God because there literally was nowhere left to turn. period. if u ever want to talk further feel free to PM me dude. this june will be 5 years sober for me and i have never been to an AA meeting. i have no desire to drink and my life is fine without it..
good luck man, i hope u are blessed like i was and make it thru this to the other side with ur life and freedom intact. if u do u will be in the minority..
aka "JOB"
Dammit....after just talking the other day! Perhaps this is the intervention that is needed! Please buddy...consider an in patient program! Get yourself right first! PM me if you have any questions or anything I can do to help.....
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I'll pray for you too
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CDP, I hope you find a good DUI attorney and look in to places to detox at. Hang in there, Man. Don't beat yourself up too much about this, you gotta look at it as the new beginning to the rest of your life.
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As ****ed up as it sounds it was the best thing that ever happened to me..........
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That's a great life experience congrats!
I think a lot of harmful behavior comes from some type of pain or negative belief we have about ourselves. Sometimes with guidance, support and maybe a little therapy will help you see things in a more positive manner. You're a lot stronger than you think b.c you're reaching out for support here. I def hope to see you move forward, take this as a learning experience and start gathering the tools you need to succeed. Like I said before you are a strong person, realize that and realize you are strong enough to overcome this hardship.
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Bingo....You are going to have to change your lifestyle and even change some friends.
Just to explain what I meant by it being good was me getting out of a career that I hated, taking time off meeting the girl of my dreams and now looks like I`m moving to Florida. I was lucky I didn`t hurt anyone or get in an accident and I count my blessings things could have been so much worse that day at one point I was driving 180mph on public roads thank god I wasn't drunk yet at that point, I thought I didn`t care about my life but this happening made me realize I did care. You will get through it.
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CDP....talk to us!!!!
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I quit cold turkey in 2002 after my DUI. Not worth it. And since then, I can't stand being with anyone who drinks, even if it's occasionally. Just hate being in different states of mind.
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Hey, this old man again. I used drvgs and alcohol for 46 yrs. I never had 3 months in a row off. Three rehabs years ago, and the last was a 9 day detox in the hospital, for HEAVY opiates, I was also drinking. If I heard you right, you seem to want it, but you must be honest with your self. So without further ado, I'll ask for a PM to tell you more. I am clean now 1 yr 3 moths and 27 days. It's HARD, FVCKIN hard. So for me AA was the answer. Yep, there's more to it then most know, maybe you do. But meetings and follow the suggestions. If you are serious and you want what we have YOU WILL GO TO ANY LENGTH TO GET IT. It worked for me and I was close to, no I WAS DIEING !. I'll close with a quote and It's true "rarely have we seen a person fail who has thoroughly followed our path. Those who do not recover are people who cannot or will not completely give themselves to this simple program, usually man and women who are constitutionally incapable of being honest with themselves"
Don't be honest with us, be honest with yourself, take the step into AA and FOLLOW the SUGGESTIONS all of them and no short cuts,. Again "It WORKS IF YOU WORK IT" remember " rarely have we seen a person fail"
Good luck and I'm open for a PM. Get yourself an AA big book, read it, read it, and read it and go to meetings ...enough from me. ...crazy mike
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Antabuse
According to Mentalhealth.com, disulfiram--brand name Antabuse--produces sensitivity to alcohol that causes a very unpleasant reaction when an alcoholic patient ingests small amounts of alcohol. Disulfiram blocks alcohol metabolism at the acetaldehyde stage, which results in flushing, headache, difficulty breathing, nausea, vomiting, sweating, thirst, palpitation, tachycardia, hypotension, syncope, weakness, vertigo, blurred vision and confusion.
Read more: http://www.livestrong.com/article/16...#ixzz2MrkCl3IU
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The only problem with the antabuse is that doesn't speak to the mind set of an alcoholic. It doesn't speak to the obsession and one can always stop he antabuse and start drinking. But it give the person time to think or choose to very ill. What I described will speak to his heart and give him / her a new design for living to live life on life's terms without any substance, if serious. So ok for the antabuse but it will have it's limit. If the obsession is lifted then, well that speaks for itself. ...not so crazy mike
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You're not the only one. I'm an alcoholic as well and have been for many years. January of 2012 it put me in the hospital w/acute pancreatitis and i thought i was going to die. Caught pneumonia while in hospital and started going thru delerium tremors all at the same time. They had to put me in a medically induced coma to save my life. I was only suppose to be in coma for 3-5 days but the tremors were so bad they had to raise the meds every time they tried to lower them to get me to come out of the coma. They tried 5 different times till i finally, 20 days later, my body allowed them to lower the dosages and i finally came to. While in coma they gave me a cat scan to see if i had brain damage and told my wife that she might have to feed me for the rest of my life. But the scan came back clean and the docs were beside themselves. They told my wife that they(i had 3 doctors looking after me) have never seen anyone injest so many drugs before. And if i wasn't the size i was and my body being able to take so many drugs i would have probably died. Came out and although it took a little while, i got back in the gym and back on the right track.
That didn't stop me though as i just recently feel off the wagon, had it out w/wife, and moved. The drinking started after the arguements w/wife. Moved into various motels from here to Ohio back to Florida and back to Ohio. And i'm moving to another one on Saturday. But i've been sober and will continue to do so cause nothing is really worth it. The way i see it now is that i can drink as much as i want but in the morning when i wake up, the issues are still there. They don't simply disappear. So i have to deal w/them regardless. Might as well be sober while doing it cause i don't know anyone that thinks clearly after a few drinks. At the time you think you are, but you really aren't.
I've done AA and don't like it. Ultimately, it's up the individual to be strong enough to say no. Hell, you can't stay at an AA meeting 24/7. You have to face the demon head on and be done w/it.
I wish you all the best and if you ever need to talk or just vent, send me a PM. I'll be around. You'll be talking to a fellow alcoholic whose been around the block a few times and i'll as straightforward as i can.
Eat well, work, and get in the gym. And have fun doing all of them! I know it's hard but remember, the beer or vodka in your case, will only be around so long till you fall asleep and wake up the next morning w/a hangover wishing you didn't drink again. I know that's how i felt. Find an outlet and use it.
All the best to you.
stpete
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on top of everything else, CDP has mental issues. it's apparently genetic, and apparently, his mom had it bad. so the antabuse will only take you so far, but with CDP, probably much further than anything he can do on his own. He probably needs antipsychotics, antabuse, and intense counsilling. this is based on my observations of his many many threads and his own self diagnosis.The only problem with the antabuse is that doesn't speak to the mind set of an alcoholic. It doesn't speak to the obsession and one can always stop he antabuse and start drinking. But it give the person time to think or choose to very ill. What I described will speak to his heart and give him / her a new design for living to live life on life's terms without any substance, if serious. So ok for the antabuse but it will have it's limit. If the obsession is lifted then, well that speaks for itself. ...not so crazy mike
Unfortunately, it seems this board is about all the help he gets. Which aint going to do anything for him.
His problems permeates pretty much everything in his life....
His relationships with women
His lack of impulse control and drinking
His bazaar behaivor here and in life which seems to be driven by mental problems, which could be genetic
he comes here seeking help, but this isn't the right place to look.
the boy seriously needs professional help.
I feel sorry for CDP
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You got arrested last night yet you are posting on a steroid forum? I'm curious to know where exactly you are posting from?
Good luck
Anabolic Member
Probably sitting cuffed on a bench waiting to be processed into the jail, lol. Dude... were you asking us to come bail you out?
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this!
CDP def needs some help from friends and family. he has to have someone that realizes his roller coaster rides, as he crys out for help on here.
i hope he can find the help he needs
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I know... this would be the last place I would be posting if I was in jail.
CDP, I'm sorry for your situation... I have an addictive personality and I abused prescription drugs a lot while in college but I've never been full blown addicted. I hope that some of the things mentioned by other members help you get back on track.
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If he was in jail he wouldn't be posting anything as they would have all his possessions. I don't even know why he was arrested. But you can get arrested for minor offences, get charged, sober up a bit, and they'll release you. Guess that's what's happened.
But i didn't know everything TR pointed out. If so, i agree w/TR, he needs more help than what i recommended for sure.
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Everyone's input here centered on the same thing. He cannot do it alone, he has to face it, (honesty) . he must go to any length for himself AA or not, Treatment or not, but the same goes honesty, and abstinence. Abstinence is a must but how do you do that. Support group, friends on the forum, friends at home (family) friends in treatment and or AA. AA is for some but it's a goo place to start. Pete said he went, maybe it worked a little and kept him clean ffor some days. Remenber we have to get clear headed from the start. So develop a network of all the people I have suggested. One day, one min, or one hour at a time and I reiterate, and as pete said, face it head on, honest to yourself, abstain and help. ...crazy mike ...............good luck
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Funny how we can't control ourselves. . . . . Don't be a quitter. . . lol
It's always in our head, how much we can do and what & when.
People need to remember they are in control, not a magical unicorn or any other man made nonsense.
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Very touching thread with some open and honest posts. Life is good CDP. Find a way to get through this.
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I wish you luck bro and I hope you find the inner strength to beat this.We all here know you can.
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I dont know you CDP but I have seen a number of threads stating you have a drinking problem and then a day later you are talking about drinking. There are threads that clearly show you are intoxicated. I gotta assume posting on here is a way to reach out but its reaching out to the wrong group of people.
I am not sure what I am at this point. Alcohol lead to coke coke lead to unprotected sex with some random girl I met out in NYC. For awhile it was kinda fun or so I thought. Then you wake up feeling like a train hit you. I probably smoked 40 cigarettes. I am washing my brajol in rubbing alcohol. It got to the point every time I go out and drink if I dont have coke I get super sloppy wasted falling all over myself and asking complete stranger for drugs to sober me up.
I went to a couple of AA meetings but they were not for me. Over the summer at my brothers engagement party I tried to fight my brothers future father in laws best friend for telling me I was a queer because I had boat shoes on. I was twice his size and half his age. Obviously I would have murdered this guy. After decking him into a wall later on that night I had picked up my future sister in law's grand mother who had back surgery a year ago. I came home and continued drinking at my parents house eventually falling asleep and waking up with my gf laying next to me on a floor crying and puke all over myself.
After being asked by my brother did what I say really happen or was I that drunk. I swore to myself that was the last time I woke up embarrassed like that. I have not drank in front of my family since then and I have learned I have triggers that I need to be aware of.
I cannot drink in a large social setting. Thats where I get caught up with no saying no and just keep going. I cannot drink with certain people. I have friends who hammer them back and other friends who can have that one drink. I know who to stay away from now. My gf will have a glass of wine at the apartment I just dont even see the point. I have been able to go out to dinner and have one glass of wine as I have learned to keep control. I was away in aruba for a week and got a little buzzed once and didnt even like the way I felt so I had some coffee and called it a night. I can control this. I dont want to be the family member that is always drunk and acts stupid.
I dont want to feel like shit anymore.
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