i dunno man ive been lifting for almost 4 years now and the gym seems to be my only relief to this sad and boring life i live. I work full time come home and dont really do much as i live in a new town and not much friends here. Every-time its an off day from the gym I feel lost and hopeless. I am very dependent on being on a preworkout and going to the gym to make me feel good and worth something. My physique id say is good for a natural.
I will be turning 22 by september and ive been thinking of doing roids since 2 years now keep delaying due to my age. But i have gotten to the point where if all i do and think about is the gym why not just begin juicing right now. I know there are problems at this age but i just dont know if i can wait any longer! I just want to enhance my self and workouts to a next level. I also see my self blowing up on them (I know they arent magic but from my physique and gym pumps atm i see a really good turn around if i cycle) I dunno what it is man but steroids are always in my head and something just keeps telling me to cycle already. Whats your thoughts ...