
Originally Posted by
thisAngelBites
I don't know, but my working hypothesis is that all your testosterone is attached to the part of your brain responsible for bad judgment, because that part is working brilliantly.
I think you miss the seriousness of what you have done and are distracting yourself with ideas of genetic abnormalities for which you have no evidence. You literally assaulted your endocrine system, which is consists of a very complicated interconnected system of very many slightly different chemicals that work in accordance with each other, and delicate feedback systems to keep the whole system in fine balance in order to carefully develop a system of chemical messengers to communicate with the many glands in your body. And then you took something that screwed with it while it was actively growing. No one (to my knowledge) has done any significant study of what the effects of these many AASs are when you take them as a kid and your brain and glands are still developing (there's no money in it), although we know that some are okay and a number never recover and have endocrine problems forever. No one knows why people react differently and whether the damage is limited to the amount of testosterone produced or if there are other effects. Some people take a year or more to recover, but achieve partial or even full recovery. It seems to be different for different people; some people are undoubtedly more sensitive than others.
If I were you, I would grow up and spend my time online looking for testosterone replacement docs remotely near me online, or exhaustively looking to see if I could find any researchers who look at debilitating steroid use in the young and then calling and seeing if they have experience with people like you or can recommend someone who has treated a few cases like yours and has had some success. One of the people I might try to contact is Michael Scally.