Hey folks... yea I know... I've been away for QUITE sometime. I think being single after being married for 6yrs kinda threw me for a loop... ANYWAY...on to my question....

Depression.

My cycle history isn't too intense. I've run about 4 of them in 2 years, however I think I kinda messed myself up on this last run (yea, influenced by a chick...go ahead and scold me). I ran Fina/Prop for 10 weeks, was off for only 5 weeks, then ran another Test Enth (500mg) for 8 weeks until my personality was scaring off even my closest friends....then I quit everything all together.

I'm now 6 weeks out...and lemme tell ya, I am SERIOUSLY depressed. It's not like I've experienced before. My gut ACHES with pain... all I can think about is how my life is useless, what I don't have, what I've lost, what I can't have and what I'll never succeed at doing.... basically, classic depression.

My question is, and I know most of you have dealt with this, is - how long will this go on?? In the past I've dealt with crashing from Deca/Sust...but nothing this severe. I know it's my own stupid fault. I got caught up in the gains and when I started crashing from Fina/Prop I jumped on another cycle... stupid stupid... Live and learn I suppose.

So for those who have made this same stupid mistake... how long did ya wanna just cry 24/7? I'm hoping I only have a couple more weeks of this and I'll be in the clear... I think this time around I'm gonna continue training natural for another 6 months and then 'consider' running another Test/Fina cycle. Till then, I just wanna get through this misery...safely...