How do you guys deal with breakups??

[mustang331]

So I was with my G/F for 2 1/2 years ( with a 6 month break )
We broke up about 3 weeks ago, with her still coming over when she was drunk ( only twice in the three weeks )
The last time she came over was last Fri. She came over at 4am and was drunker than hell. I was angry for many reason's, beings she was driving while drunk and using me because her roommate who she went out with left her at the club to go see her Ex B/F

In the morning I said some things to her, some things I don't know if I regret or not, but I told her she cannot do these things, She cannot contact me any more or think I am some door matt to be used when she is depressed, I also told her I don't know if I even love her anymore, or maybe I never even did..

The truth is I lvoe her more than life it self, and I feel I will always love her no matter what, she was so special to me even despite how much of a true POS she was ( if you only knew the stories ) but for some reason I was madly MADLY and still am in love with her..

Now its been about a week ( tomorrow ) with no contact AT ALL. I am really hurt over this, I had a break down 2 days ago and just cried like a baby.

She is like a drug, I know when I am with her I shouldn't be, but when I am not with her all I want is her..

How do you all deal with this? will I eventually get over it?? during the 6 month breakup we had lasttime I still felt for her allot. I am afraid I will never let her go

Also to boot, me being shallow has allot to do with this, this girl is a near 10, and I mean that when I say it and sex was just crazy with us..

Alright so maybe share some stories??

Thanks all..

********************UPDATE************************ **********
Well guys, I really messed up
I was doing so damn good and to be honest 80% of it came from this post. Knowing I wasn't alone and other people have been there before and coming from people I trust ( Weird being it's an ineternet site )
But like I was saying a whole week went by and I was ontop of my game ( game being just being happy ) I went to sleep last Sun. night and for the first time I really didn't think of her. Sure enough I get a phone call at 3am, it was her, she was crying a little and told me she got back from Jersey and had no ride home, that her friend must of passed out and never woke up, She begged me to please pick her up as she had no where to sleep ( her keys were at the person's house who was supposed to pick her up )
I was stuck in a corner, I had no choice really. I picked her up and we headed towards my house when her phone rang, it was her friend. She pleaded to pick it up or not, and told me she wanted to sleep over. I told her "NO" and we went to her friends house and I dropped her off.
She called me after I dropper her off, now about 4am and thanked me 100x, She asked and begged to come over that next day to watch a movie with me. Part of me knew it was a bad Idea the other part wanted to love again, I knew it was only going to be temporary and agree'd. I said to myself that I am going to strong and to good that I can't be pulled back in anyway..
Well sure enough I kinda was. We are no longer talking again, and I just hope this whole situation did not set me back to square #1.

I really need to change my number