I totally agree and I won't give a ****. 10 lbs is not that much. 15 lbs during 12 weeks would be just fine. Some new clothes would make it less noticeable as well. The most important thing is that I feal good about it myself.

MER: No, honestly I don't think I've done what I can naturally. Now you'll probably advice me to go naturally? Why is this so important? We all have our reasons to juice, right.. I have decided that next summer I am going to have this masculine look on my chest through the sweater, if you know what I mean. If I was as "big" as I am when I'm pumped up and tighten my mucles I would be on the right way. I can still grow when I work out and sleep properly and get a lot of rest. But I don't have vacation all year round - and I never will.

My results come in periods. Usually when my job don't get me exhausted etc.

I haven't reached my goals because I lost focus during a new job, I got catabolic (I was exhausted every day for several weeks) and I stopped working out for six-eight weeks at the same time. I started working out and felt like I got smaller i the beginning. I could feel the testosterone level wasn't high. That's why I first started researching AAS!

This is maybe 8 weeks ago. In a couple of weeks I think I'll be back to where I was. Now my goal is to get ready for some gear. Maybe I don't actually need it but now that I know so much about it I love the thought of it.