Originally posted by The Original Jason
Ok I have been thinking about this for ages on and off and spoke to alot of people about it so I want to throw it in here.

I read so many places and threads yeah steroids make me feel great and things like roid rage" you are only more angry if oyu are normally an angry person" and many more comments like that.

Well for me and I am just talkin about myself here and I like to be honest cos I hate all them giving it the large one im charlie big potatoe people who big up themselves all the time.

Juice does not make me feel better about myself as a person or it doesnt improve my emotional life, state of mind, peace of mind, it doesnt give me a feeling of well being in fact from the minute I start a cycle I feel fucked I get more crazy thoughts in my mind, my peace of mind is gone I mean gone, im no longer the calm person I sometimes can be, I fuck up my relationship for no apparent reason, I chase sex with other women to satisfy the lust, I make irrational decisions and thats just some of the things.
I start to feel paranoid about losing hair and getting physical problems also I do get many physical problems at times

Ok I like to get bigger an attain my goals thats what we are all about right but im not into lieing and saying yeah it makes me feel real great and improves many things it doesnt.

I am not in any way saying dont do it cos I will still do it I just want to know if other people feel the same.

I call steroids "character defect enhancers" we all have character traits good and bad so no one can say they dont have any character defects and to me juice really enhances the defects in my own character. It brings out the worst in me in all ways, I am tying to start a logical disccusion anyone with useless comments will be deleted .

I am lucky to have had alot of experience due to my past looking into myself and learning about how to deal with emotions and feelings, and looking into how humans react and how feelings are developed and how and why and so on.

I will finish with many people lie to themselves to justify their own behavoiur its similar to addiction, but easier to justify.

Hope to get some educated replies

peace
Jason
Hey Jason it seems to me that gear gives u more negatives then postivie advantages but u said ull continue to do it, why? Maybe thats a problem in it self u said it changes u as a person for the worse and ruin relationships and chase sex etc Then maybe gear isnt for u maybe getting bigger isnt the most important thing to conside in ur situation. im not flaming you at all. I seen some of the posts u put up and i read threw them and u seem to be expressing ur feelings a lot which is a good thing but it always seems that ur argueing agasint steroids and angry with how it makes u as a person sayin they do change ur character and attitude then maybe u should find what makes u happy and stay away from using gear. Again no flame im just tryin to give u a educated response