Let me start this off by saying i am soo fat. I hate it. I am more depressed than ever about how i look. when i was 16 turning 17 i weighed 150 and started working out. I was getting much stronger so i decided i would lose weight so i went on an intense diet of really only protein and good carbs I dropped 15 lbs in 2 weeks so i was down to 135. After maybe 6 months of working out i could bench 225 at the weight of 135. Anyways i got a serious girlfriend and stopped working out anyways she has broken up with my fat self 3 yrs later and now and i am left with nothing. I tried to bench 160 the other day and couldnt move the bar. Wow have i let myself go and gotten weak. I want to get back where i could have been if i kept at it all these yrs. i feel like the only way 2 do that is with the use of performance enhancing drugs. I know i would need to drop alot of weight before i would start a cycle and get into a good routine of dieting and working out. I just feel so empty knowing that i am so weak now and wont be where i could have been.
Any advice on what i should get my weight 2 before i start or any other comments would be nice. I feel this is something i have too do or i will be a depressed all my life.
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