Quote Originally Posted by msu16366
Thanks for all the response.
There are many other issues that are in the back of both of are heads Im sure.
I couldnt even tell you the last time we had sex. She pays no attention to me sexually at all and if I didnt push it when I do I would never get it. Yes I dont talk to her the best at times and I am not sure why. She has some very questionable nights as well but no smoking gun to prove anything.
Infact she used to never let me go out and would only bitch and bitch when I did. She recently got a new job and travels once in a while now., Perhaps thats why she lets me go out now.
anyways before I even went to the bar she told me I could get a blow job from someone else as long as I could do it without out getting numbers and no kissing, etc. I am sure she was joking as I was trying to get one from her and said I could easlily get one from somewhere else, but she still said it and put the thought in the back of my mind.
Perhaps the lack of attention I get from her and all the attention I get when I go out caused me to go as far as I did. I am not sure exatly but I am not ready to get a divorce at 26 with a 2 year old.
Again thanks for the response and hopefully we willl make it through this and get to the real problems as why I act this way in the first place.

And if things dont get better I guess I am readly to try one massive cycle.
Thanks again
sounds like your marriage was already heading towrds the rocks... and you just made it go head first into those rocks with that number exchanging. goodluck. but u got some ass kickin in front of you