Man this is a lesson to everyone just how quick it can all go to hell. Youll be ok bro, now you have something to work towards again, gives you a little motivation to work your ass off. Its amazing though what 20 lbs can do, it made all the difference in your sides and midsection. Not so much your arms or chest but your abdomen took a beating. Cheer up though youll be back to the old you.