its more than lack of motivation, its the scrips u r on.ive been on meds for ocd,bipolar disorder, a chronic anxiety disorder, they had a hard time nailing down my diagnosis to say the least.all i can say is most of the meds ive been on(and ive been on ALOT) have ha a very tranquilizing effect on me.needless to say i lived in a zombie-like state for years.im now free from all the scrip drugs and ive learned to deal with my conditions on a mental level.i still suffer from alot of the symptoms but with age and maturity ive learned to cope with them.im not saying everyone can or should do this its just what i felt i needed to do.im quite sure your motivation issue has more to do with your scrips than your work ethic.it really comes down to what you need to do to make sure ur ok and it sounds to me like that includes your meds for now.GL brother its a hard thing u deal with everyday i do understanda and i wish u the best.shoot me a pm if u ever need to vent or talk about what your going through id be glad to toss it around abit. peace