Originally Posted by
dukkitdalaw
Well after reading TJM's post about the negative aspects he encountered while using anabolics, I figured I may as well put my experience up there also.
It all started, long, long ago in Never Never Land. I was only 20 years old. A friend of mine who had been juicing for years and was a beast introduced me to the whole aspect of bodybuilding and steroid's role in it.
Now mind you, I had just overcome a Cocaine and Prescription Pill addiction. I was probably clean for about 10 months before getting into the whole weight lifting scene.
So my boy convinced me to get some gear off him and do a cycle. I was like, whatever. Im down. I started a Test E and D-bol cycle. Things were great, I had great gains. Alot of compliments. My diet and training were up to par.
I was on about week 8 of a 12 week cycle when an ex g/f and I got caught up in some drama and I ended up going back to jail for 10 months. So I went from working out and eating tons of food to being in a 8x10 cell for 23 hours out of the day. Eating the little portions of shit that they feed you in jail and only workouts available were push ups, squats, body wieght type stuff.
Of course, since I didnt have access to gear or PCT, my levels crashed and I became very depressed, lethargic, not hungry. Broke out in alot of acne, dick stopped working. I became so depressed that on one day, we were allowed out for our hour, I went in the shower, with some strips of sheet and tried to hang myself.
Yes I tried to commit suicide. Ive always been a happy go lucky guy with tons of friends, women and family that love me. So for me to do this was very extreme. I actually went through with the whole rope around the neck and starting the hanging. The only thing that stopped me from finishing it, was I picture of my mother popped in my minds eye. I couldnt see anything. Just cloudy vision and my moms smiling beautiful face. So I grabbed the rope and undid myself.
I sat there and cried in the shower till I got myself together. I went back to my cell and slept for 3 days. In the end, I lost over 20 pounds of body wieght. I lost more then I had gained with the juice. After about 6 months I guess my levels got back to normalish. I started getting some money and was able to buy food. I started to eat alot and workout more. I gained about 10 of the pounds back. After my time was up, I came back to the real world. I focused myself. On my job, my family, my close friends, my wieghtlifting. Those are the things that have kept me out of trouble, away from drugs and on the slighty sane side of life.
So the moral of the story is, for you ppl considering the use of Anabolics. Be sure that your life is together. That you research everything!! Weigh the pros and cons. Get everything you need ahead of time. And most of all, just be safe.
P.S. This site was instrumental in helping me get my shit together and really learning about anabolics. Now I can safely use them. So thank you to this board.
-Dukk
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now im a sexy b!tch!! yea boy!!
and i am happy that you found this board. If you want to talk abt gear I am here just dont talk to TJ he just use vitamins j/k.
Really says a lot about a man to be able to reach the bottom and still come back up......"So the moral of the story is, for you ppl considering the use of Anabolics. Be sure that your life is together." This quote really hit home for me. The cycle that really did me in was the one that I started a week after my gf of 4 years broke up with me, I had no business doing it, and it took me to a very bad place, that I will never ever go back to....Thanks for sharing such a personal experience with all of us.....On a lighter note, you ready to get loose this weekend or what my dude!?!?!?
...btw what happened to tj?
