The meds seem to be ok while on cycle, but the issue becomes after.

For myself,(from being on similar meds), it hit after pct was done.

I don't have the substance abuse history you have, or a history of depression.

I would say, judging from your post, Consider not running gear at all.

You sound like the gym is your mental outlet, and your happy there.

It's a confusing thing sometimes, but I would stay away until you research alot more.

Selective Serotonin Reuptake Inhibitors are always subject to changes in your body chemistry.

There is no manual on each individual case on this.

Best

T