Dont take this the wrong way, but it sounds like you are more interested in doing steroids than trt/hrt.

The goal of hrt is get your hormone levels in proper balance... test, e2, thyroid, dhea etc.... so you feel healthier and more vital, and ultimately live a more productive and happy life.

Dont get me wrong, do what you want, I'm not judging by any means. Just understand there is a very distinct "closet juicehead" syndrome.

This above all, to thine own self be true.....
-Shakespeare