Now, I'm as tough as the next guy...maybe even tougher...but I had a hell of a time psyching myself up for my shot tonight. This was my 7th shot, and the 4th one I have given myself. All previous shots were without event. I get all set up and after the regular 5 min or so (lol...true) I stuck...and hit a vein...ouch! I pull out and get a nice trickle of blood...no biggie...I have read about it happening to you guys all the time...I put a new needle on and..........lost my fuckin nerve or something...I start yelling at myself and slapping the piss out of my face!
My neighbors must have wondered WTF! 90 fucking minutes later, and a whole Rage Against The Machine CD, I stick again...I do so because I told myself that if I didn't have the nuts to stick, I had no chance in BB! I should throw away all my gear, and stop going to the gym!! I stick, but what the fuck...the needle didn't penetrate! I changed it, so...WTF?
Fuck it...I put on another one...take about 30 more minutes...decide to shoot a little lower...more to the center of the cheek...and it slides in like butter...like normal! I was never so happy to overcome a mental obstacle....hoo fucking yah!!!
Sorry this was so long...but who better to share it with than you guys/gals!
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