Have you been training regularly over the past four years since you took the superdrol. I had a few friends in college that got there hands of that sh*t, that was absolute poison. Unfortunatly they have the same exact story that you are sharing right now. The didnt have to have surgery but they had some pretty harsh side effects. You are probably going to get a lot of criticism on here saying you need to either train/diet better and save the AAS for later on. Which to do believe is true, you need to do a great deal of research on your own before deciding its something you want to do, BUT if you do decided to do something.... keep it simple for your first time. Test only cycle with propper PCT and you will see results of course with proper trainging and diet. I'd stay away from the orals... just my opinion