
Originally Posted by
Bojangles69
No that was quite well explained. My only question is how the hell do you know all of this? lol.
You seem to know way more than the avg person and these are questions I've had for a long time. I think the problem really is the sheer amount of
research on both sides. If I want to find a reason to hate blacks, its not really hard if I set my preference for that type of information.
And likewise if I grew up around them, and was more socialized with blacks, I'd prob prefer to find research that supports your viewpoint.
Overall though you seem much more thorough in all aspects of your understanding.
About me I'm surprised you noticed what my attitude was. Because I think I've only mentioned it once or twice on this forum and one time was a drunken
tirade where I quite embarassed myself.
I'm not making excuses but I honestly had no opinion of blacks up untill serving time. In prison is was almost forced on me from the first day I walked into a mess room, sat at table full of blacks, and as I was throwing my food away some ayran brother explained to me "its much better to sit alone, then to sit with those ****ers". And he explained basically the way behind the walls. The brotherhood also tried befriending me in the rec yard, but they were shady fvcks. I just tried to be polite, but not really engage them on any friendly level.
I wound up staying to myself for the majority of those 2 years. And the amount of racism I experienced from blacks from fights, to death threats, to lock up, then PC when the bloods were after me (for no real reason in the world) just left me with a real sour taste towards black when I got out. The plotting and planning, scheming, trying to be your friend so they could distract you to rob your locker. I was basically the minority I guess you could say, and it was a living hell everyday I woke up.
Its been maybe 6 or 7 years since that experience and my mind is definitely opening up. And the fact is there was one guy who helped me survive prison and he was a muslim brother. He was the only black guy who actually looked out for me, but also one of the most respected, and ever since meeting him I never had to deal with any racist bs again. So my attitude is not even fully justified.
I can feel myself getting older and moving towards a more balanced view of life in general. And I don't even want you to think of me as a prejudice biggot. I believe I have an open enough mind to move out of the beliefs I adopted during prison. And I thank you very much for offering your time to explain all of this. I almost feel relieved to finally get an educated explanation from someone, more at peace about it all I guess you can say. And if I ever offended you in the past in any threads I definitely apologize. It should be about letting go of the hate, not living in it forever just to fill w/e voids it is that led to hate in the first place.
take care man - Bo