RoNNy THe BuLLS Cycle Diary - 20 Weeks

[mass junkie]

aiight man make up your mind........bulk or cut....lol.............whatever bro its all good.......imho you dont look outta shape to me.........good to hear that you feel the stuff starting to kick in.....100 bucks american money that says you change your mind again

[manijak]

hehehehe that's one of everyone dilemas junkie
but I agree with him ronnie, jumping from bulking -cutting diet on a daily or weekly basis might produce counterproductive results in both aspects.
From my understanding the more uniformity in diet the more body learns to use all the nutrients introduced in your body in a "wise" maner.
nevertheless ,good results so far, keep it up bro

[RoNNy THe BuLL]

100 American bucks EH Mass Junkie? Haha...I'm a smart man, so I'm not gonna bet on it.

Right now, it's 10:03pm and I'm about to leave for work and I'm really really really craving Taco Bell....ahhh fuck. I'm not gonna do it...I'm not gonna do it...3 Hard and 2 Soft...I'm not gonna do it........

I'll let you know it tasted.

[RoNNy THe BuLL]

Check this out...
HARD Taco
Cals - 180
Protein - 9g
Fat - 10g (saturated fat 4)
Carb - 12g

SOFT Taco
CALS - 220
Protein - 11g
Fat - 10g (4.5)
Carb - 21g

That doesn't seem TOO bad...

So if I were to eat let's say...5 Hard Taco's?

Protein - 45g
Carb - 60g
Fat - 50g

I'm fuuucked...hahaha....
= 900 Calories. Yikes.

[mass junkie]

Check this out...
HARD Taco
Cals - 180
Protein - 9g
Fat - 10g (saturated fat 4)
Carb - 12g

SOFT Taco
CALS - 220
Protein - 11g
Fat - 10g (4.5)
Carb - 21g

That doesn't seem TOO bad...

So if I were to eat let's say...5 Hard Taco's?

Protein - 45g
Carb - 60g
Fat - 50g

I'm fuuucked...hahaha....
= 900 Calories. Yikes.

you see if you were bulking....you could probaly get away with it

[RoNNy THe BuLL]

Well, woo. I didn't cheat. And it's been ONE-ass clean day. One of the MANY to come...(you'll owe me 100 American Mass Junkie, which will make me a Canadian Millionaire!)

I managed to find what curbs my appetite when I have the binge to cheat. I found a compilation of foods and drinks that I enjoy that have either NO carbs or no calories...

Food wise, I bought some BBQ Chicken Wings that have no carbs, and per 3 wings it's 15g Protein and 15g Fat with 0g Carbs. Woo....and also those Cheese Mozarella sticks? Those things have 6g Protein and 4g Fat with 0g Carb.

I also loaded up on Diet pop. No calories. I don't plan on just drinking down all this stuff, but drinking one of these whenever I have a craving has helped me...atleast today! It totally killed my craving for the Taco Bell..

Anyways, I was gonna do legs tomorrow, but my knees are both swollen from an accident I had LAST Friday at work, so I think I may pass and just do Abs, Calves, Forearms and Traps.

[Calipso]

Nice little diary. Good luck Ronny.

[thetank]

looking big bro, keep us posted. and man i know how you feel tryin 2 stick 2 a strict diet totally opposite of your usual lifestyle. i went from living off pizza burgers and beers 2 egg whites plain chicken breasts and protien shakes with flaxoil....its a rough fucking time, but the pay off is worth it...and those tacos will be alot more satisfying on your cheat day.
peace
tankus

[RoNNy THe BuLL]

Well, it's day 20 I believe and I'm down about 13 net pounds. I'm sitting at 200lbs right now and from the time I first started @ 213lbs I don't notice a lot of a difference. But that's just me.

Two days ago I ended up JUST doing arms. The power IS going up, but nothing seems to be working at all in me actually feeling a good pump. I did circuit for a long time and that pump was insane, but now I think my bodies too acustom to it.

I still lose my breathe and find it very difficult to do a circuit (which is my goal to get the cardio positive effects from circuit training and stimulating muscle growth).

But when I did arms 2 days back I just did STRICT heavy work and my arms had a good pump, but nothing special. I was dumbell curling 50lbs for reps of 8 no problem (which isn't light, atleast for me) and doing Tricep pushdowns with the stack of 190lbs again for reps, but nothing really hit my muscle. The next day, I wasn't sore at all. I mean NOTHING. I mean it felt like I did absolutely nothing. I did 5 exercises and 3 Sets of 10,8,6 for both Bi's and Tri's and I still didn't feel sore. I don't know if I can attribute that to the Enanthate or just not going hard, heavy OR intense enough...I really don't know...

SO yesterday, I circuit trained shoulders and arms again (arms two days back to back) but I kept my reps higher (20,15,10) and my pump was pretty good, but nothing compared to what it's supposed to be. And today, yet again, I have NO soreness. That's confusing me. I go slow with my range of motion, I use heavy weight (even for the high reps, I struggle with the last 3 or 4 always in each set). IF this is what Enanthate does to you, it's both a good and bad thing.

I miss being sore, it felt like I actually accomplished something, but without it? It's like I haven't gone hard enough...which is a pain in the ass.

Last night I carb'ed up, and this morning I'm holding a lot of water. I'm thinking maybe atleast 5lbs worth. You can see it in my face and my arms, and a little in my chest. But nothing too insane.

I fuckin' HATE dieting. I didn't fully understand how hard it is and for those of you who do it constantly for competitions or personal endeavours, I have a new found respect for you. For anyone who hasn't seriously dieted down (and my diet is nothing hardcore either) it's incredibly hard to keep up. My family constantly orders Pizza and all this other food that I love, and that's a BITCH to say no too. When all your family is eating a Meat-Lovers-Deluxe-Cheese-Filled-Crust Party Size Pizza...and you're downing a Protein Shake and a nice fat tablespoon of Udo's Oil....and that smell of pepporoni, bacon, sausage and ground beef with the oozing of the sweet mozarrella cheese strings hanging from the cheese-filled crust....and the Garlic Bread and Caesar Salad...and unlimited amount of cheese and meat...hoooly fuck. I'm dying right now.

Someone please save me.

[mass junkie]

Damn bro sounds like torture...........with the smell of pizza in the background.............I had a papa johns pizza with the works...For the bills game...it wasnt that good..(cough) bullshit (cough).. ..I just have one question.......when you were working out how come you didnt go heavier or do more reps....so you could actually feel the workout? 50 pound dumbell curls are not light by anybodies standards.....keep it up big man........

[RoNNy THe BuLL]

What's up dudes,

I'm offiicially now on day 22 and my weight is sitting at 203 right now. I'm back up 3lbs but the Entanthate is slowly kicking in well.

I complained before about not being able to FULLY feel my workout and having an unorthodox method of attacking my body parts (doing 16 sets of ONE exercise varying the rep range).

I shot up 500mg Enanthate and 250mg Sustanon about 2 hours before my workout and I took a power nap. By the time I woke up, I was puking allover the place. Nothing was coming out but water and mucus the first two times and the last two times I spat up blood. I had some serious heart burn too...which I still have. Ouch.

Regardless, I sucked it up and hit the gym. I decided that I was going to stick to the BASICS today and just rock DEADLIFTS and FLAT BENCH PRESS. But I started out with doing 4 ab exercises for 4 sets of 12 reps each.

EACH exercise was 5 sets of reps going from 12,10,8,6,4...

Deadlifts (overhand grip)
Flat Bench Press
Deadlifts (underhand grip)
Flat Bench Press
Dumbell Deadlifts
Flat Dumbell Press



Lemme tell you, I was fuckin' dying. With puking like crazy about 30 minutes before my workout and having heart burn last up to NOW (and still going).

I started off with the deadlifts @ 225lbs and cleand out 12 very easy with good form. I then went up to 275lbs for 10 reps, 295lbs for 8 reps, 315lbs for 6 reps and then finishing off with 335lbs for 4 reps.

I moved on to Bench Press and was EXTREMELY WEAK after the deads, but that's not an excuse, I'm poor in the bench department anyways. I started off with 135lbs for 12 reps, then went to 155lbs for 10, 165lbs for 8, 175lbs for 6 and then 185lbs for 4.

I moved back to under-hand grip deadlifts and I stayed with 225lbs for 12,10,8,6,4. I found myself terribly out of breathe and just pumped to the point I had to lie down after each set.

I moved back to the Bench Press and did the exact same amount of weight as the previous set.

I then went to Dumbell deadlifts and started off with 60lbs for 12 reps, then 70lbs for 10, 80lbs for 8, 100lbs for 6, and then 120lbs for 4. I should've gone heavier 'cause I know I could've. But now I know for next time.

I then moved onto flat dumbell press and man I felt like a weak-ass. I started off with 60lbs for 12 reps, then 70lbs for 10, then back to 65lbs for 8, 60lbs for 6 and then kept it at 60lbs for 4. My arms kept giving out. I decided rather than go heavy and cheat on the number of reps I had set out, it would be better to choose a weight I can handle for the desired reps....but I felt WEAK. No biggie though, the mirror says it's paying off.

I'm starting to get a solid vein in my biceps that I wanted for a long time. My forearms are also showing a lot of viens and I really felt this workout....I good feeling. My back pump was insane and suprisingly, so was my chest regardless of the weight I used.

I still have some severe heart burn, and I KNOW tomorrow my back is gonna be sore...but I'm looking forward too it.

I really HATE feeling so weak, but what can you do. It's the price you pay while dieting....

[RoNNy THe BuLL]

Get this...

I take my cuz Vic to the gym with me today right...and usually I can sign guests in for free, but the guy at the desk was being an asshole. He says, "I tell you what. The 8 dollars that you spend today for visiting can be refunded when you purchase your membership." SO my cuz says, "Listen, I just want to work out. Is there anything you can do?" the guy at the desk is looking all cocky and says, "Mmm...sorry. No." So we say fuck this and we're about to leave. But I said fuck it again and since we're already there might as well pay. So I pay for my cuz and we go in and have our workout. When we're done, the asshole has the balls to say, "Have a nice day fellas...see you soon!" with a real cocky attitude and sarcastic tone...but he was near the cardio machines. So on the way out, I jacked a box of Protein Bars. That's right, I threw them into my bag and we enjoyed them on the way home...that bastard, he's gonna pay.

31g Protein
2g Fat
5g Carb...

12 bars for 8 BUCKS! Ha! Screw that asshole.

[RoNNy THe BuLL]

Oh, tomorrow I plan on doing JUST Military Presses and Trapz...

So it'll look like this...5 sets of 12,10,8,6,4...

Barbell Military Press
Barbell Shrugs
Barbell Military Press
Barbell Shrugs
Dumbell Press
Dumbell Shrugs

I'll let you know how it goes...

[mass junkie]

Get this...

I take my cuz Vic to the gym with me today right...and usually I can sign guests in for free, but the guy at the desk was being an asshole. He says, "I tell you what. The 8 dollars that you spend today for visiting can be refunded when you purchase your membership." SO my cuz says, "Listen, I just want to work out. Is there anything you can do?" the guy at the desk is looking all cocky and says, "Mmm...sorry. No." So we say fuck this and we're about to leave. But I said fuck it again and since we're already there might as well pay. So I pay for my cuz and we go in and have our workout. When we're done, the asshole has the balls to say, "Have a nice day fellas...see you soon!" with a real cocky attitude and sarcastic tone...but he was near the cardio machines. So on the way out, I jacked a box of Protein Bars. That's right, I threw them into my bag and we enjoyed them on the way home...that bastard, he's gonna pay.

31g Protein
2g Fat
5g Carb...

12 bars for 8 BUCKS! Ha! Screw that asshole.

I hate pricks like that...........you did the right thing............thats probaly what I would of done too............sounds like he may need a good ol fashioned ass whipping as well

[BiggerBri2002]

ROnny,

Great posts...especially the 5 points you post a few weeks back. I am on my first bulk cycle now and going through the same crazy mind games you are....it freaks my to be almost at 220 when I used to be in the high 190's. At time I see guys in the gym with these awesome cuts and say "shit" I need to look like that, but then remember that I will after I add on quality muscle from my current cycle. Your traps and delts look awesome man and so does the back. Only thing that looks like it needs work is your chest.

Keep it UP!

Bri

[King Test]

Ronny, I am enjoying reading your thread but I have a few points...

1)Diet - A little research and fine tuning may not hurt, it sounds like you have a tough time with it. For your bodyweight, your elevated protein synthesis could easily handle another 100 grams of protein, and at the same time you could lower the fat and keep the calories at the same level. Also, carbonation reduces oxygen uptake in the muscles, so the soda might not be the best of ideas, in case you didn't know. But some people like that soda!

2)Training - Sounds like you have an unorthodox training split/routine. To be honest, I'm confused. If you could post your daily split you might help clarify, but from where I stand I think it could be tweaked also. A day consisting of deadlifts and bench presses sounds better suited for a powerlifter to me. I'm not questioning you, if you would post your split I might see the logic behind it.

3)'Weakness' - With the Sustanon in your system, the propianate is immediately elevating your Test levels as you know. So why are you feeling weaker? The fundamental idea behind a cutting cycle is gaining muscle and getting stronger WHILE losing bodyfat. You should be able to up the poundages, even though it is only week 3.

A few questions, only trying to understand your cycle and possibly help. Best of luck Ronny, I'm looking forward to the remainder of your cycle.

[RoNNy THe BuLL]

Thanks for the reply guys,

KING TEST, in regards to the diet, I'm actually doing well on it besides what I write! I just don't have any place to bitch about it besides here! I'm only human! Haha, but yeah, I agree with you about the Protein count, but it's very hard to reach. I tend to keep it at around 250g-300g a day, which is MORE than enough...atleast for my body. And I agree with you on the soda part, but I don't drink it often. Only when I crave something, it works well at killing my cravings.

In regards to training, for some reason I had a 'feeling' that my body would react well to just destroying the shit out of ONE part of my body. And today, hooooly shit my back is absolutely destroyed...so is my chest. But not ONE part of my back, my WHOLE back. From the Lats to the Rhomboids up to the Trapz and even the subscapular region...it's all killing and it's a bit swollen...which I love! My chest is very full today too and I looove it. I think I found what works for MY body.

In regards to saying I feel 'weak'. I just feel 'weak' because of the dieting. Granted, I'm getting a little stronger and being able to push off more reps, but not anywhere near as I was while I was bulking. And while on AS, I will gain a few lbs of LEAN muscle, but the primary purpose is to keep as much muscle possible while dieting. My goal isn't strength gain, but the noticeable loss of strength DUE TO dieting and change-up of routine and rep range are noticeable.

But good reply! Thanks for the info bro!

[King Test]

Good stuff, thanks for clarifying. I always go with my instinct when it comes to training, too.

So you've found a diet that works for you, you know how you will react to training, and you are just whining and bitching about being weak because you act like a girl

-I missed the part where you said you were changing rep ranges. In my opinion, this is a common misconception... BigGreen had the same problem and what worked for him was keeping the weight heavy and reps low, but doing cardio and keeping to a very strict diet. Many find that high reps tend to smooth you out and, in a sense, make it more difficult to hold on to the muscle you've built through low rep HIT. Maybe you've considered this, but its better safe than sorry.

In any case, best of luck and keep up the hard work.

[Polska]

Update us Ronny!

[50%Natural]

I look forward to reading more about your progress. Glad you taught that fag at the gym a lesson. Good luck bro.

[mass junkie]

Havent heard from you in a while....hope everything is cool bro.

[RoNNy THe BuLL]

Sorry bros,

Been busy with school and work and family stuff! This whole week I've been with my new-born niece! She was born on September 29th @ 4:25am and a HEALTHY 21", 8lbs 8 ounces. She's kick-ass.

Besides that, my diet has been strict and on point. I've cheated a few times, but that was on account of my new niece. With family over to see her, the food was there and it would've been rude not to eat what was brought over. But it was generally healthy.

Right now I'm on day...29 and things are getting good. The Enanthate is fully kicking in and while I'm dieting, my strength is still going up.

If you recall, I went from struggling with 185lbs on Bench for 6 reps and now I'm easily pulling of 225lbs with ease and slow and controlled reps, WHILE dieting. My deadlift jumped up 50lbs from 315lbs for 4 to now 365lbs for 6. I'm dumbell curling 60lbs for reps of 6 and I'm military pressing 185lbs for 8 reps. This is all while dieting.

About 6 days back, my weight jumped up (i dunno how) but I went from 200lbs to 210 in about 2 days and it was noticeable. My shirts started to get very tight and they still are. Especially in the arms...which I love.

My arm strength is blowing up also. I'm up to 190lbs on the V-Bar pushdown for reps of 20 with ease and I'm noticing the 'boost' from the Test in the last few reps. RIGHT when I'm about to feel my body fatigue out, it kicks in and I kick out maybe 2 or 3 extra reps. Kinda freaked me out, but it was a GOOD freak out.

The whole idea of doing 1 exercise for 15 reps is working damn well! My chest is sore and so is my back after everyday I work them out. Not just a normal sore, a deep muscle sore. The one's where if you move to fast, it burns. I love it. THAT'S what I was looking for.

I find my chest reacts very well to Smith Machine bench presses over Barbell/Dumbell bench press and it's better to hit my chest Flat vs. Incline.

My back responds very well to deadlifts. Every last inch of my back is sore and engorged with blood after doing 15 sets of deadlifts with varying grips. I wake up the next day and my Lats are the first thing I always feel. Just sooore, I fuckin' love it.

I set aside ONE day out of the week to really hit my rear delt with some light weights to fully round out and even my shoulder. I never go heavier than 10lbs and I do a variety of exercises with reps ranging from 10-20. It works real well, and even though it's light weight, it burns like a bitch and the shoulder development is noticeable after the bloods been poured into my shoulder.

I'm started to see striations in my delts, and the abs are coming in. I can see about 8 of them if the lighting is right and I'm doing the right pose, so I'm happy that I'll be able to kick some nice abs in once I drop some body fat. My arms haven't shrunk in size, but because my waist has gotten smaller and everything is getting tighter (except for the water retention which is a bitch) my arms look bigger.

I ALSO came to this conclusion, it's a bit OFF topic but it was something I told myself I would mention....

It's been tough for me to get that seperation between my tricep/delt, but AFTER working out my rear delt and subscapular, I noticed that when it was pumped WITH my tricep pumped, the cut naturally came in. So I think the lagging rear delt development accounted for the lack of seperation...just got me thinking and truly realizing the importance of muscle tie ins....just blew me away.

My face has also got a lot thinner and more defined, and the chicks seem to LOVE it. Hahaha....I ain't complaining.

Today however, I'm starting to really hit up the cardio. I did an hour cardio in the morning, no slow pace or anything, I ran like a mofo. Tonight, I'll be doing the same thing but interval training. Mainly sprints. People who say I'm over-training, keep in mind I'm on the sauce. Normal rules don't apply anymore. Woo...

Now that everythings really kicking in well, I'm happy with what's shaking. I look forward to everyworkout and this week I'm switching it back to Circuit training.

I'm going to also start Clen again, been off for two weeks and this is gonna by my two weeks back on. I'm hoping to get down under the 200lb mark within the next two weeks.

If my diet is right and I drop the carbs from the 150g-200g mark which I'm taking in right now, to around 100g and keep my protein the same (250g-300g a day) I'll be very pleased with what I know will happen. I'll drop atleast 10lbs within the next two weeks, if not more. I'll lose a lot of water and with the clen, shed some fat. I'm hoping to get to atleast the 190's some time within the next two weeks. I'm taking it week by week and that's my short term goal.

Within the next 14 days with Cardio twice a day for 5 days a week, with Circuit training 5 days a week and having one set day for my neglected muscle groups (rear delt, abs, calves, forearms, traps, subscapular) and eating a high protein, low carb diet...things should fall into place and I'll be in the 190lbs area.

Right now I'm sitting back at 202lbs.

I'll post up some pics soon...

[mass junkie]

Good job bro.....Im glad to hear things are going well with ya...........and congrats on the new addition to the family........have fun changing diapers bro...its a hoot.........yeah bro post some progress pics

[mass junkie]

Where you at bro..........you havent updated in 12 days.....hope everything is cool with ya bro

[someday]

dammit ronny, how am i suppost to get ready to diet down if you aren't posting your damn progess....now dont you feel like an asshole!!! hehe j/k hows it goin man interested in your circuit training routine and how thats goin.

[RoNNy THe BuLL]

Sorry I haven't updated in awhile bro's, but this is the deal....

After taking shot of Enanthate on Monday (I aspirated and I was NOT in a vien) I ended up taking nap. A few hours passed and as soon as I woke up my body was totally fucked. I mean fucked.

I had no co-ordination, my vision was blurry and I became severely delerious. I couldn't swallow anything because my throat became severly swollen and my temperature was 103F. Being the idiot that I am, I stayed at home the first day like a mute. I couldn't even talk to anyone, I wasn't responding when people called my name and my body kept breaking out into very cold sweats and extremely hot temperatures. When I say I was delerious, I mean it. I don't remember too much about the last couple of days except for talking to myself a lot in my sleep....which has been non-existant for the last couple of days. It began to scare my parents a lot so last night they took me to the hospital at around 2am.

When I got there, I was still a bit delerious and didn't know too much about what was going on. When the doctor came, he asked what the problem was and my mom told him my body temperature changes drastically from hot to cold, I have no body co-ordination, I can't eat solid foods without throwing up, I'm delerious and I haven't been sleeping. He asked me if I was taking any drugs and to be honest with him. I told him I took a shot of Test Enanthate and some Clen before I got sick. He checked me out a bit more and came to the conclusion that I have Tonsilitis. So at the age of 21, I need to get my tonsils out. However, I can't havev the surgury until I'm off the sauce. He said I would be pumping too much blood and would seriously risk having an infection, and at my age it wouldn't be a smart thing to do. So Monday was my last shot. Even now I'm breaking out in Cold/Hot sweats and I still can't swallow whole foods, or even Ginger Ale for that matter.

This has really opened my eyes to watching how healthy I should be because this is the worst sickness I've ever had in my life. Ever.

[mass junkie]

Sorry I haven't updated in awhile bro's, but this is the deal....

After taking shot of Enanthate on Monday (I aspirated and I was NOT in a vien) I ended up taking nap. A few hours passed and as soon as I woke up my body was totally fucked. I mean fucked.

I had no co-ordination, my vision was blurry and I became severely delerious. I couldn't swallow anything because my throat became severly swollen and my temperature was 103F. Being the idiot that I am, I stayed at home the first day like a mute. I couldn't even talk to anyone, I wasn't responding when people called my name and my body kept breaking out into very cold sweats and extremely hot temperatures. When I say I was delerious, I mean it. I don't remember too much about the last couple of days except for talking to myself a lot in my sleep....which has been non-existant for the last couple of days. It began to scare my parents a lot so last night they took me to the hospital at around 2am.

When I got there, I was still a bit delerious and didn't know too much about what was going on. When the doctor came, he asked what the problem was and my mom told him my body temperature changes drastically from hot to cold, I have no body co-ordination, I can't eat solid foods without throwing up, I'm delerious and I haven't been sleeping. He asked me if I was taking any drugs and to be honest with him. I told him I took a shot of Test Enanthate and some Clen before I got sick. He checked me out a bit more and came to the conclusion that I have Tonsilitis. So at the age of 21, I need to get my tonsils out. However, I can't havev the surgury until I'm off the sauce. He said I would be pumping too much blood and would seriously risk having an infection, and at my age it wouldn't be a smart thing to do. So Monday was my last shot. Even now I'm breaking out in Cold/Hot sweats and I still can't swallow whole foods, or even Ginger Ale for that matter.

This has really opened my eyes to watching how healthy I should be because this is the worst sickness I've ever had in my life. Ever.

Sorry to hear that bro.........But I'm glad that your starting to feel a lil better.........Tonsilitis huh......never been through that so I cant tell you any advice but then again that what Dr's are for.........keep us updated im sure you'll be back on your feet in no time.....so does this mean your giving up the sauce for good?

[RoNNy THe BuLL]

To be honest with you, I don't know. But I'm leaning towards yes. I think I may be done sauce for good. I've never been this sick in my life, and it's been a real eye opener to just how important my health is. I don't know...we'll see what happens today after I go see the Doc again.

[tmeoe]

Bro, i had an emergency tonsilectamy when i was younger, my adnoids swelled up so bad it prevented me from breathing in my sleep, my mom had to rush me to hospital. Your lucky it wasn't that bad. I doubt very much that the gear had any role in giving you tonsilitis. Though i can see how an experience like that could easily turn you from using gear again. I hope all goes well, by the way did you parents find out about the AAS? Good luck.

[mass junkie]

To be honest with you, I don't know. But I'm leaning towards yes. I think I may be done sauce for good. I've never been this sick in my life, and it's been a real eye opener to just how important my health is. I don't know...we'll see what happens today after I go see the Doc again.

Give it some time before making that kind of decision.......your feelings will change with time...........But glad your ok bro

[talon]

Damn, Ronny sorry to hear about you misfortunes bro. I hope everything works out for you and you recover quickly. Your a smart man and Im sure you will make all the right decisions. Good luck w/ everything.