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>Good Luck<;639***8
Mike, I just want to say thanks for sharing your experience with us here on the board. Its obvious that steroid use was much different back in the day and now it seems to be much more hard-core. I think if you can manage to keep your bi-polar in check and your relationship in tact, you'll have a good shot at the over 50 comp. I look forward to following your progress on this journey. you seem like a smart man and obviously have much more life experience than all of us, so it's hard to even attempt to give someone like you advice...but I will try ONE small piece, and I hope you can view it with an open mind... I have some experience with people with addiction, and with various other mental health issues- addressed and not addressed. it seems you have a good grasp on your situation and are aware of your circumstances, however I am slightly concerned about one comment...you've suggested that your addicted to the AAS and it is effecting your temper and your bi-polar condition... it seems to me you have an amazing, loving, caring and most of all- understanding wife... If it were me, i'd make sure in every instance that she is feeling safe and secure and loved. no physical self gratification would be worth losing someone like that over and im sure you know this. I would say you should make a log including your daily emotions and how they change throughout a day, week, moth...whatever...and if any really alarming patterns should show up, I trust you are wise enough to take a step back and recognize that as an addict, maybe a decision needs to be made...IMO, you are much healthier now than you were at one point, but my experience with addiction and mental health tells me that "better" does not mean "healed" and the disease of addiction is never gone, but only supressed....it's not always easy to accept, but with your experience im sure it is easier to recognize the bad pattern before it gets to late.
Again crazy mike, thanks for sharing your experience and please understand that im not trying to tell you what to do in any way, only sharing my concern for a guy I have a new found respect for... cheers brother!