it's probably just the American institution in me, but "i'm abusing steroids." probably fact because i dont really have a reason to do them. i almost have everything i want and a path for more. i just like the juice. i have drug seeking behaviors... another fact. redz was pretty on point. that is what i was thinking.

but, i'm keeping all doors open here. listening. i'm still going to juice. what the heck else am i going to do with this gear guys? competition is stiff in my arena and i'm getting old. i an't gonna be a fat crusty fucker on his way to retirement that all the young guys mock when i'm not around. you know what i'm saying? gotta stay mean. gotta stay sharp. i need the energy and aggressiveness.

i'm really bad about keeping my steam if you know what i mean. i'm used to being on empty and during PCT and recovery i don't feel much different, except i'm not interested in sex all that much. less energy. that's all i notice

Sorry Rich, i can't tell you more. i don't plan on getting out any decade soon. if i was retired sure.

So... i'm thinking i'll maintain test at around 500mg / week and dose 200mg tren e / week. i'll test prop in the first month, or 2 while the test e builds. the tren will start low and end at maybe 400mg / week. can't say really. i've got some uniforms that i need to keep fitting into, otherwise suspicions may raise. i'm thinking 16 weeks. with another 6 weeks at normal / high test levels.

what can i say? are there not guys that like gear for gear? viril, dominant, sharp, sexy, faster