What I wanted to do is to see how far can I push it in six months. Six months ago I decided to change my lifestyle: got off the drugs, alcohol, cigarettes, then sugar, no fast foods; what else...that same time started spending hours daily in my local gym(mostly at night, learning what is what and how to use it), joined more gyms, read books, articles, forums(this one is the best imo).

Just over a week left until the six months is up, and this new hobby of mine has grown into a full-blown obsession. I don't know if it's the tren or my addictive personality or what, but nothing else seems to matter right now. Took time off work, keeping social interactions to a minimum. All I want to do is finish this six-month project and give it absolutely all I've got, and then some.

Is this wrong? Sounds kind of fucked up when I think about it. Gonna finish this though, Yates voice in my head all day every day: 'tunnel vision, man. you made a deal with yourself - what, you gonna pussy out of it now? how bad do you want it, man? Tunnel vision!'