Fasrmer... exactly how I am..... I just have alot of stressful crap in my life... except one good thing and it can be alot to handle at times. I'm running outta things to do to keep my head clear.... no friends around here can suck big donkey dick at times... there's a few good bro's from here that I have their number... but ya can only say so much over the phone... ya know what I mean.