
Originally Posted by
PittBoy
I read a lot in this forum but I don't post often. Especially since by the time I get to a post, much more knowledgeable people have already commented, so I have nothing more to really add. In this case, I have some concerns for you man, and I mean all of these comments with respect for your well being, hopefully you take them as such.
Fear is something we create and we can let dominate us. It often comes on from a lack of control, which is why we can have panic attacks. There are also many other life experiences that can create these fears. I suffered from severe anxiety and panic attacks at one point in my life after a horrible acid trip. It was a self induced situation, but it was debilitating for about 2 years. I went to counseling and learned how to deal with the fear and I learned to let go of the control. We can't control what may or may not happen to us but we can control how we are going to react.
If you aren't in counseling, please start. I think you really need it. I haven't had a panic attack in 20 years. There is a ton of excellent medication out there. Medication is often looked down upon but it can change your quality of life if that is something you need.
Depression. This, I know all to well. I suffer from manic depression and went decades without diagnosis. I medicated through alcohol and didn't even realize I was doing that. My depression isn't something I can be talked through or that will change without medication. It is there and it won't go away, but, I went and got treated years ago and my quality of life is substantially better. 200mg of Wellbutrin changed my life. I no longer sink into that deep dark hole of depression where it feels like the world is crushing you, and where it feels like it's all just hopeless.
I know some people have really negative things to say about meds but, if you are in here looking at dbol as a med, you should really be looking at something that is truly going to help you.
I mean this next part with all sincerity man, stop self diagnosing. Stop giving yourself more things to fear. You mentioned even worrying about enamel and the dentist. Stop. Easier said than done, right? Here is a fact to think about. 85% (I think that's the number) of what we worry about doesn't ever even happen. We waste our time worrying about things that never even come to be. Why? Does it do us good? Nope. The best advice I can give is to stop that. Don't try and stop, just stop.
You seem like a smart person. If people on here, with a lot of great knowledge, are giving your advice/direction, take it. Don't wait until someone gives you the answer you want to hear. Flush that Dbol.
I think if you keep on the path you are, you are going to go out into the world less and less, and you are going to let fear run your life. Push the fear out of the driver's seat and get some help, if you aren't already doing that.
The last thing you need is any alteration to your hormones while you are battling things mentally. Anything you do should be under medical supervision, based on how you have described your situation.
Get healthy mentally before you think about doing anything with any type of gear.
I wish you all the best.