Who in their right mind is going to sell a gun to a nutcase like you (who has had multiple stints in the looney bin)? Just go stick to using gear to bench 90lbs.
I have the two things I need:
(1) No criminal or psychiatric record for the past 5 years
(2) The owner of the gun club is a licensed firearms dealer, I've got him vouching for me as well as about 5 or 6 other members vouching for me