I love the sport of bodybuilding and had gotten into at first just for impressions and girls. But now its become a much more significant part of my life. It is my addiction! I feel like I can never ever be big and ripped enough, like there is always some part of my body that I can improve on. And I just want to always be on the top of my game and be in the best shape i possibly can. To me, in bodybuilding i am constantly striving for perfection, but yet, deep down inside of me wishes I never reach it, because that would mean i am finished and then i would have to stop. I NEVER WANT TO STOP!!! I think I would be mentally sick and depressed if I did. I hope when i die they bury me in two caskets, with some free weights. Sounds fcukin crazy i know but hey, thats how i feel