Take responsibility for your actions. You ain't the man....you are not callin the shots for anyone but yourself... Kick your own ass! Smartin-up, dummy... when you rage, you loose respect from all around you. Take a deep breath and leave the situation...YOU DON'T NEED TO WIN...it just doesn't matter...that is life. People will be afraid of you... you will be locked up & that is not respect, it is a tragety.
You need to get this under control now. The meditation will help. I wish you the best of luck.