Cowboys Accountability Log

[Cowboymike]

Love your daily gratitude especially! Awesome leg workout

Thank you very much! I’ll tell you one thing, it’s definitely helped me on my quest to replace the negativity in my life with positivity. I still have along way to go, but what a great tool it has been! It helps me to not focus on poor me stuff and redirect towards the blessings and gifts... the smaller the better imo... simple stuff I have taken for granted for so long. Like I’m entitled to everything without thought. Just a greedy want more and more without thought about what I already have... so it’s been helpful. Even on my days where I’m stuck in the negativity... one great tool for the tool box indeed! Now to just keep chipping away at it ;0)

[Cowboymike]

Day 311

Upon wake up:
20mg Omeprazole
1 Kirkland allergy tab
500mg L-Tyrosine
400mcg T4
2.5iu HGH (2.5iu @6pm)
12.5mg Aromasin, SpartaPharma



Pre-work out:
40mg Anavar, SpartaPharma
20mg Superdrol, SpartaPharma
10mg cialis, SpartaPharma
1 serving BCAA’s 2:1:1
1 serving 5,000mg creatine


Post workout:
1 serving BCAA’s 2:1:1
1 serving 5,000mg creatine




Meals:
Meal 1
Calories: 460
8oz boneless, skinless, chicken thigh
1 sirachi low carb wrap
4tsp sirachi hot sauce
1/3cup shredded Mexican blend cheese


Meal 2
Calories: 400
2 choc chip cookie dough protein bar


Meal 3
Calories: 380
2 choc chunk brownie protein bar


Meal 4 (last chicken wrap)
Calories: 460
8oz boneless, skinless, chicken thigh
1 sirachi low carb wrap
4tsp sirachi hot sauce
1/3cup shredded Mexican blend cheese


Meal 5 (last container)
Calories: 589
2cup Riced cauliflower
Ground turkey
2tbsp sour cream
6 green onion stalks chopped
4tbsp bacon crumbles
5tsp cholula hot sauce
1/2cup mushrooms sliced
1 chopped onion
1tsp Worcestershire sauce
.2 tbsp better than bullion beef base
1tbsp garlic powder
1tbsp onion powder


Meal 6
Calories: 575
4 farm fresh eggs
1 pepper jack cheese slice
1/2 cup sliced mushroom
1oz crumbles feta cheese
10tbsp crumbles bacon


Plus vitamins:
Vit D3, Vit E, Magnesium, Wild Alaskan Fish oil, Turmeric, Saw palmetto, iodine, L-Tyrosine, calcium citrate, zinc



Woke up super early for whatever reason. Didn’t sleep good at all anyway. Decided since I was up to go ahead and get my workout in. Went and banged out a quick shoulders.

Got a request to go help an old timer out on his ranch today. I get a lot of produce and yumminess from him when it’s in season.. his cute old wifey makes the best jam and even includes a plaid cloth around the rim of the jar when she seals them.. told him to call on me if he ever needed a hand with anything. Today he cashed in on that offer. It was cool to get the call, put in some solid hard work and of course the reward after the hard work... of sitting in the oversized, handmade rockers he built many moons ago, on the big ass front porch he also personally built, sipping ice cold sweet tea his wife brews daily with fresh lemon slices sitting in the bowl next to me.. swapping bull riding stories with a real legit old school bronc bustin rodeo cowboy.. no money to be exchanged on this day that’s for damn sure. Can’t even put a value on this... my soul is so full of goodness today, I’m all smiles. He thought it was funny I brought a packed lunch/snacks... I explained I turn into a big d-bag if I’m not snacking/eating often. He chuckled and said there’s plenty of food in the house if I want.. I didn’t even want to go look. I already know there’s nothing but goodness in there that won’t fit my macros ;0)

No doubt my body was worked out in every possible way today lol.. good thing I have some fuel in the tank to go with my drive.


Daily gratitude item:
Grateful for sunny days with the bulls. Funny how pleasant they can be when you don’t have a flank rope tied around their waist and pulling one right across their chest to hold me onto his shoulders lol... there’s sweetness in these guys though. Like oversized dogs. Don’t under estimate their intelligence. They are smart AF. Grateful for old timers and their stories and their old school ways. I don’t even want to think how it’s a dying action and there’s generations who’ll never get to experience this soul food. So I’m grateful I at least get to experience this. Money can’t buy this.



10:00pm will be
50mg metoprolol (BP meds)
300mg Ranitidine (antacid)
25mcg T3
1 - 5-HTP Plus
1 - CY3 tablet
500mg L-Tyrosine
2 Kirkland sleep-aid
25mg Iron


Total water consumed until now:
1.75 gallons


Total Calories and Macros today
Calories: 2,864
Protein: 306
Carbs: 109
Fiber: 88
Sugar: 29
Fat: 131



Workout:

Seated Mid cable rows
3 sets @
100lbs x 20 reps

Seated High cable rows
3 sets @
150lbs x 12 reps

Lat pull down
3 sets @
150lbs x 8 reps

Close grip lat pull downs
3 sets @
120lbs x 15 reps


Straight arm cable lat pull down
3 sets @
120lbs x failure

Rear delt fly machine
4 sets @
150lbs x 15 reps

Cable upright rows
4 drop sets @
80lbs x 20 reps
60lbs x 20 reps
40lbs x 20 reps
20lbs x failure reps

Tbar rows
3 drop sets @
180lbs x 10 reps
150lbs x 10 reps
90lbs x failure

Upright Rows
3 drop sets @
60lbs x 10 reps
50lbs x 10 reps
40lbs x 10 reps
30lbs x 10 reps
20lbs x failure


Cardio 45min, elliptical, setting 12, 5 miles

[Obs]

Bulls are some of the smartest animals there is.
Horses and doga dont have a thing on them.


Sounds like an awesome time.
The species is fading away fast with the consolidation of farms and ranches.

[Obs]

You would enjoy talking to an 84 year old cowboy I know.
He was a good timer and has some batshit stories that were all confirmed true.
Guy was wild as hell and still rides his horse rounding cattle and drive a semi 70 in a 55.


My favorite quote of his:

Fuck em if they caint take a little joke.

This is a fitting line for him if he accidentally pulls out in front of someone or starts an argument.

By happenstance I grew up next to one of his wild days buddies he partied with. 280 miles away!
First time I heard him say his name in conversation I couldnt believe the coincidence.

Both of them were pervs but hilarious as hell.

[Obs]

Btw AR staff and admin ...

This guy right here is the perfect fit for any staff position. Unbiased, positive, helpful, caring, and rises above all drama etc.

You wont find another with his mindset.

[Cowboymike]

Bulls are some of the smartest animals there is.
Horses and doga dont have a thing on them.


Sounds like an awesome time.
The species is fading away fast with the consolidation of farms and ranches.

You would enjoy talking to an 84 year old cowboy I know.
He was a good timer and has some batshit stories that were all confirmed true.
Guy was wild as hell and still rides his horse rounding cattle and drive a semi 70 in a 55.


My favorite quote of his:

Fuck em if they caint take a little joke.

This is a fitting line for him if he accidentally pulls out in front of someone or starts an argument.

By happenstance I grew up next to one of his wild days buddies he partied with. 280 miles away!
First time I heard him say his name in conversation I couldnt believe the coincidence.

Both of them were pervs but hilarious as hell.

It’s almost a little creepy when you first witness their intelligence... they’re very calculated and strategic.. that 300degree vision of theirs (I literally just learned that today lol.. after all these years I had no idea they had such a wide range of vision) makes it very difficult to out Fox them... I watched 5 of these guys act like a wolf pack today. It blew me away... then it dawned on me that these guys are like best of friends... I guess I never think of them as emotionally intelligent or intelligent for that matter... makes me really replay some of my rides though... especially the assholes purposely squishing my leg against the chute before a ride... just lean into it crushing it... or when my nemesis use to hold his breath when they drew my rope right... I thought it was a way to fight possible discomfort... but now I know without a doubt that sum bitch was purposely trying to make my rope loose for the ride... because sure as shit after I split finger wrapped and getting ready to go all of a sudden my rope would be loose.. he let out from holding his breath and now he had all that room lol... I always thought it was happenstance... (I like that word and I had to look it up but now I’m going to use it lol. Thank you for the new addition!)

Anyway, these suckers licked my face raw they were so sweet... bobbing their heads as if they were dancing to beats, strutting around swaying their bodies and swishing tails lol.. they knew who the big dawgs on the farm were. I was just there to haul and build shit to make life more convenient for them.


I believe this guy is in his 80’s as well... sounds just like him with the crazy stories lol. Can’t beat those old cowboy stories. Times were just so different...

[Cowboymike]

Day 312

Upon wake up:
20mg Omeprazole
1 Kirkland allergy tab
500mg L-Tyrosine
400mcg T4
2.5iu HGH
.25mg Caber
12.5mg Aromasin, SpartaPharma
250mg TestC, SpartaPharma
200mg TrenE, SpartaPharma
100mg MastP, SpartaPharma


Pre-work out:
40mg Anavar, SpartaPharma
20mg Superdrol, SpartaPharma
10mg cialis, SpartaPharma
1 serving BCAA’s 2:1:1
1 serving 5,000mg creatine


Post workout:
1 serving BCAA’s 2:1:1
1 serving 5,000mg creatine




Meals:
Meal 1
Calories: 650
4 farm fresh eggs
1/3cup shredded Mexican blend cheese
2 turkey sausage patty


Meal 2
Calories: 494
2 cups Greek yogurt
2 cups blueberry
1tbsp honey
1tbsp Tabasco sauce


Meal 3
Calories: 1,756
14oz pork ribs
3.5 cups chopped kale salad (pre-made)
2 jalapeño




Sorry for the late and quick entry.. I gotta get up early early tomorrow and I’m still trying to get prepped for bed

Both gyms were closed on me today. I could’ve sworn 24hour said they’d be open.. I knew my other gym wouldn’t be.

So I had to come home and ride my wife’s bike lol... now I’m sure that was a sight to see.. threw on some deadwood and headphones and got lost in the storyline... I went .5 over on time than I intended...

Smoked some ribs, some eggs, hot out stuff ready and headed out to watch the girls waste egg hunt and we all got to enjoy each other’s company. An excellent day indeed!!

Hope y’all had the best Easter ever!




Daily gratitude item:
Grateful to be on this earth today to enjoy such a wonderful day with some I consider to be as close as family as I got.



10:00pm will be
50mg metoprolol (BP meds)
300mg Ranitidine (antacid)
25mcg T3
1 - 5-HTP Plus
1 - CY3 tablet
500mg L-Tyrosine
2 Kirkland sleep-aid
25mg Iron
3iu hgh
Plus vitamins:
Vit D3, Vit E, Magnesium, Wild Alaskan Fish oil, Turmeric, Saw palmetto, iodine, L-Tyrosine, calcium citrate, zinc


Total water consumed until now:
1.25 gallons


Total Calories and Macros today
Calories: 2,900
Protein: 176
Carbs: 206
Fiber: 25
Sugar: 151
Fat: 154



Workout:
Both Gyms were closed :0(


Cardio:

1.5 hours on my girls pink stationary bike.. not even sure mileage or settings or anything... just turned on deadwood and got to pedaling lol

[Cowboymike]

Day 313

Upon wake up:
20mg Omeprazole
1 Kirkland allergy tab
500mg L-Tyrosine
400mcg T4
3iu HGH
.25mg Caber
12.5mg Aromasin, SpartaPharma
250mg TestC, SpartaPharma
200mg TrenE, SpartaPharma
100mg MastP, SpartaPharma


Pre-work out:
3iu HGH
40mg Anavar, SpartaPharma
20mg Superdrol, SpartaPharma
10mg cialis, SpartaPharma
1 serving BCAA’s 2:1:1
1 serving 5,000mg creatine


Post workout:
1 serving BCAA’s 2:1:1
1 serving 5,000mg creatine


Meals:
Meal 1
Calories: 380
2 choc brownie protein bars


Meal 2
Calories: 380
2 choc brownie protein bars


Meal 3
Calories: 535
4 farm fresh eggs
10tbsp bacon crumbles
1/3cup shredded Mexican cheese
1/2cup sliced mushroom


Meal 4
Calories: 634
8oz pork ribs


Meal 5
Calories: 634
8oz pork ribs


Meal 6
Calories: 865
2 cup Greek yogurt
1 serving whey concentrate, unflavored
1 serving whey concentrate, chocolate
4tbsp pbfit powdered peanut butter
1 serving amazing grass green superfood
2 tbsp natural jiffy peanut butter



Plus vitamins:
Vit D3, Vit E, Magnesium, Wild Alaskan Fish oil, Turmeric, Saw palmetto, iodine, L-Tyrosine, calcium citrate, zinc


Smashed the day... the workday went a bit longer than anticipated which time crunched me later.. but made it through all my to do’s today, so I’m happy.

Somethings wrong with my elbow. This isn’t the tendon thing... this is as if I smashed my funny bone on something and even the slightest touch or brush against the top side rounded part of the elbow bone is so super sensitive... it made it extremely difficult to work out. I found a few work arounds at least but feel very unfulfilled... I’m on crunch time now... I can’t afford this set back... I still got chest, shoulders and back to do... legs won’t matter obviously but I still gotta load the dang plates... I have no clue wtf is happening. I’m kinda hoping this is just the tren telling me is time to step off the train and heal... my last cycle pin was today anyway...

I’ll bio-freeze and ibuprofen my elbow into submission and wrap it and go to sleep.



Daily gratitude item:
Grateful to get the opportunity to speak to my grandmother... I don’t cry.. ever.. it’s just not something that happens with me... I’m not hard or cold. It’s just not something that’s normal for me... like ever... but fug if I didn’t shed some tears talking to her and sharing how much I love her... completely caught me off guard.. so many wasted days, wasted chances to reach out.. I gotta get a better handle on this.



10:00pm will be
50mg metoprolol (BP meds)
300mg Ranitidine (antacid)
25mcg T3
1 - 5-HTP Plus
1 - CY3 tablet
500mg L-Tyrosine
2 Kirkland sleep-aid
25mg Iron


Total water consumed until now:
2.25 gallons plus 2 hydration packets and 2 zip fizz energy vitamin packets


Total Calories and Macros today
Calories: 3,427
Protein: 329
Carbs: 113
Fiber: 75
Sugar: 61
Fat: 175



Workout:

BGT Dumbbell Curls
2 warm up sets @
25lbs x 35 reps
1 set @
50lbs x 6 reps
1 set @
40lbs x 10 reps
3 sets @
30lbs x 10 reps
3 sets @
25lbs x 10 reps

Easy bar stand up curls
3 sets @
60lbs x 15 reps
3 sets @
50lbs x 15 reps
3 sets @
35lbs x 15 reps

Flexor dumbbell curls
4 sets @
25lbs x 12 reps


Reverse curls with easy bar
1 set @
40lbs x 1 failed rep
Elbow failure

Cable Tricep pushdown with straight bar
6 sets @
100lbs x 50 reps

Cable reverse tricep pushdown with straight bar
1 set @
150lbs x 1 failed rep

Cable tricep rope pushdown
6 sets @
100lbs x 50 reps

Sit down tricep machine
6 sets @
200lbs x 10 reps


45min cardio on elliptical setting 12/5 miles

[Obs]

Just wrap elbow tight as fuck with ace band and take some nsaids.
It will be gone shortly.

Usually with thst feeling fingers are numb specifically ring and pinky.

Also lay down on floor on your back and relax completely. Think about eating puss while gf puts 100 lbs of pressure on the upper center chest.

Thats c5 getting put back in place

[Obs]

Let her suprisecyou so to speak with the chest step.

If she weighs less than 100 lbs then send her to me.
I could mastrubate with her in one hand like a stroker.

[Cowboymike]

Let her suprisecyou so to speak with the chest step.

If she weighs less than 100 lbs then send her to me.
I could mastrubate with her in one hand like a stroker.

Lmao! The visual!! [emoji23][emoji23]

She’s got another 65lbs to drop for that scenario to work out... but I’m thinking you could handle anything ;0)

[Cowboymike]

Day 314

Upon wake up:
20mg Omeprazole
1 Kirkland allergy tab
500mg L-Tyrosine
400mcg T4
3iu HGH
12.5mg Aromasin, SpartaPharma


Pre-work out:
3iu HGH
80mg Anavar, SpartaPharma
40mg Superdrol, SpartaPharma
10mg cialis, SpartaPharma
1 serving BCAA’s 2:1:1
1 serving 5,000mg creatine


Post workout:
1 serving BCAA’s 2:1:1
1 serving 5,000mg creatine


Meals:
Meal 1 & 2
Calories: 1,001
Smoked egg and pork rib salad:
4 farm fresh eggs
6oz pork rib
1tbsp avocado oil mayo
1tbsp mustard
1tbsp cholula
Onion powder
Garlic powder
Chopped and grilled onion
Finely chopped hot n Spicy pickle chip
1tbsp finely chopped jalapeño
1tbsp Worcestershire sauce


Meal 3
Calories:
1 ham and cheese croissant


Meal 4
Calories: 760
2 protein bar, supreme protein peanut butter crunch


Meal 5
Calories: 540
8oz pork ribs, Costco


Meal 6
Calories: 407
2 cups cottage cheese


Plus vitamins:
Vit D3, Vit E, Magnesium, Wild Alaskan Fish oil, Turmeric, Saw palmetto, iodine, L-Tyrosine, calcium citrate, zinc


Slept so terrible last night. Made driving to the coast a challenge. Took every thing I had to stay awake. I drank way to many monsters and in turn made my stomach feel crappy all day lol... some days I wish I could be one of those people who can do a little stimulants and then simply walk away from it no problem. Caffeine doesn’t even work. Energy drinks don’t work. Ephedrine all by itself does nothing... my fault. My choices as a youth screwed me for life on this and dopamine functions.

It was pretty sweet on the coast anyway. I sure wish I had my board and a proper wetsuit to just jump in the water and catch a few... just like the good ol Cali days...

My body is definitely feeling beat.. some solid down time, as much as it’s going to drive me mentally a little crazy, is going to do me some good. As well as allowing my body to air out and reset.

My workout was a struggle. Checked the boxes type of night. I’m already future tripping and my heads not in the game today... I’ll get chest out tomorrow... it was a coin toss between legs or chest...

Headed out from gym to shower and then dropped in for a massage.. that definitely helped out a lot.

Now off to bed and ready to start one last early day for a while. I’m going to give it 110% and crush the day. Hope you all had a kick ass day and are having a stellar week so far!




Daily gratitude item:
Grateful for opening doors and fresh new ideas. Even if they turn out to be nothing it’s nice to feel a sense of well being and hope for the future.



10:00pm will be
50mg metoprolol (BP meds)
300mg Ranitidine (antacid)
25mcg T3
1 - 5-HTP Plus
1 - CY3 tablet (will be last night)
500mg L-Tyrosine
2 Kirkland sleep-aid
25mg Iron


Total water consumed until now:
1.50 gallons


Total Calories and Macros today
Calories: 3,038
Protein: 232
Carbs: 140
Fiber: 11
Sugar: 36
Fat: 175



Workout:

Shoulders and back day

Warm up supersets
4 sets @
15lbs x 20 reps each
Dumbbell front raises
Dumbbell lateral raises
Dumbbell Bent over rear delt raises


Shoulder press
3 sets @
100lbs x 15 reps
3 sets @
120lbs x 15 reps
3 sets @
150lbs x 6 reps

Arnold press with twist
3 sets @
45s x 10 reps
3 sets @
40s x 10 reps
3 sets @
25s x failure

Phase 2 super sets using plates
4 sets @
25lbs plates x 10 reps each
front raises
lateral raises
Bent over rear delt raises

Mid cable rows
3 sets @
100lbs x 20 reps
3 sets @
150lbs x 12 reps

High cable rows
3 sets @
150lbs x 12 reps
3 sets @
120lbs x 10 reps

Lat pull down
3 sets @
150lbs x 8 reps
3 sets @
120lbs x 8 reps

Rear delt fly machine
4 sets @
150lbs x 15 reps

Cable upright rows
4 sets @
80lbs x 20 reps
60lbs x 20 reps
40lbs x 20 reps
20lbs x failure reps


Close grip lat pull downs
3 sets @
120lbs x 15 reps
100lbs x 15 reps
80lbs x 15 reps
60lbs x failure

45min cardio on elliptical setting 12/5 miles

[Cowboymike]

Day 315

Upon wake up:
20mg Omeprazole
3iu HGH
12.5mg Aromasin, SpartaPharma


Pre-work out:
3iu HGH
80mg Anavar, SpartaPharma
40mg Superdrol, SpartaPharma
10mg cialis, SpartaPharma
1 serving BCAAs 2:1:1
1 serving 5,000mg creatine


Post workout:
1 serving BCAAs 2:1:1
1 serving 5,000mg creatine


Meals:
Meal 1
Calories: 407
2 cups cottage cheese


Meal 2
Calories: 400
2 choc chip cookie dough protein bar


Meal 3
Calories: 380
2 choc chunk brownie protein bar


Meal 4
Calories: 540
8oz pork ribs


Meal 5
Calories: 390
3 farm fresh egg, hard boiled
2 tillamoo cheddar cheese snack


Meal 6
Calories: 622
2 tbsp jiffy all natural peanut butter
2 cup plain Greek yogurt
3 tbsp raw honey



Plus vitamins:
None tonight


Im just worn out. Plain and simple. Everything hurts and Im just completely exhausted. Thank goodness for honey and it being so fast absorbing... I experienced an insanely quick oncoming hypo attack.. I was just outside my front door though and dropped in some honey and peanut butter and drowned it in some yogurt... within a couple minutes the sweating, shaking and dizziness disappeared and I went on about my biz no more problem.

Put in a good day at work. Tied up all my loose ends and turned in my truck to get switched out with a new truck while Im out. Feels weird not having it parked out front though.

Hit the gym and my elbow was killing me so bad all day that I just did legs. I took my time tonight. I just concentrated on good clean and solid reps. Blasted my music nice n loud and everyone else just faded off into the blur of my not paying anyone any attention... it was a good last workout. Much better than last nights... I feel a little lost at the moment tbh... feels like its going to be forever until I can lift again... fug it. Ill work on trying to keep what mass I have and see if I cant capitalize and burn off this bf

I am beat though... time to sleep. Get ready for game day. Hope you all had a kick ass day today!



Daily gratitude item:
Grateful to get everything wrapped up that I needed too. Now I dont have any reason to trip on doing anything except healing. Itll be a nice change to not stress on a ton of stuff. As I have always done in the past. Grateful to be in a position to where Im able to get this done.


10:00pm
50mg metoprolol (BP meds)
300mg Ranitidine (antacid)


Total water consumed until now:
2.25 gallons


Total Calories and Macros today
Calories: 2,738
Protein: 263
Carbs: 116
Fiber: 60
Sugar: 72
Fat: 126



Workout:

Legs

Incline Leg press machine
1 set @
90lbs x 50 slow reps
1 set @
900lbs x 6 reps
2 sets @
810 lbs x 8 reps
3 sets @
720lbs x 10 reps
3 sets @
630lbs x 10 reps
3 sets @
540lbs x 20 reps

leg press machine
3 sets @
630lbs x 10 reps
3 sets @
540lbs x 10 reps
3 sets @
450lbs x 10 reps

On incline leg press machine I did calves
4sets @
450 x failure

Leg extensions
1 set @
180lbs x 10 reps
3 sets @
220 lbs x 10 reps
3 sets @
180lbs x 10 reps
3 sets @
160lbs x 15 reps

Leg curls
1 set @
100lbs x 30 reps
3 sets @
200lbs x 10 reps
3 sets @
180lbs x 10 reps
3 sets @
150lbs x 10 reps


Weighted step ups, 2ft platform
3 sets @


45s in each hand x 10 reps


45min cardio on elliptical setting 12/5 miles

[Cowboymike]

Day 316

Upon early wake up & preworkout
6iu HGH
12.5mg Aromasin, SpartaPharma

Pre-work out: 4am
80mg Anavar, SpartaPharma
40mg Superdrol, SpartaPharma
10mg cialis, SpartaPharma
1 serving BCAA’s 2:1:1
1 serving 5,000mg creatine


Post workout:
1 serving BCAA’s 2:1:1
1 serving 5,000mg creatine


Hopefully be eating by 4pm today...

Minimal water to take supps

Meals:
Meal 1
Calories:


Meal 2
Calories:



Meal 3
Calories:


Meal 4
Calories:



Meal 5
Calories:



Meal 6
Calories:



Doing the log now since I don’t know where I’ll mentally be later. I woke up super early of course. I got bored so I went to the gym. Not very bright to workout and not be able to hydrate. I won’t do that again. I’m pretty sure I’ve said that before though lol..

Meals later look like it’ll be just simple cottage cheese with some puréed fruit and a protein shake with double protein. We will see how I feel.

Today is my last day of compounds for the cycle. I’ll officially be on trt protocol as of Friday. I’ll post up some before and after a after I take and combine a few pics to do a comparison with... I’m a little afraid lol. I didn’t stick to a good enough deficit towards the end there.

If I’m of a good enough mind later I’ll update macros and actual numbers consumed etc.

Hope everyone has a killer day today! Get out there and crush it! Whoop whoop!!! We got this!


Daily gratitude item:
Grateful to wake up to a new day. To have another chance to leave a wake of good juju everywhere I go. Grateful for the opportunity to have a chance to positively impact any life outside of my own.



????pm will be
50mg metoprolol (BP meds)
300mg Ranitidine (antacid)
25mcg T3
1 - 5-HTP Plus
500mg L-Tyrosine
2 Kirkland sleep-aid
25mg Iron


Total water consumed until now:
0 gallons... 1/4 cup to take meds


Total Calories and Macros today
Calories: 0
Protein: 0
Carbs: 0
Fiber: 0
Sugar: 0
Fat: 0



Fasted Workout:

Stand up curl w/easy bar
3 sets @
80lbs x 15 reps

Cable rope pull down extension
3 sets @
100lbs x 15 reps

Seated Shoulder press machine
3 sets @
100lbs x 15 reps

Seated Reverse fly
3 sets @
125lbs x 15 reps

Seated tricep push down machine
3 sets @
150lbs x 25 reps

Stand up dumbbell curl
3 sets @
45lbs x 20 reps

Seated chest press
3 sets @
200lbs x 10 reps

Seated Fly
3 sets @
150 x 15 reps

Cable flys mid
3 sets @
50lbs x 15 reps

Cable flys high
3 sets @
50lbs x 15 reps

Cable flys low
3 sets @ 15 reps

Cable row, Mid
3 sets @
100lbs x 25 reps

Cable row, high
3 sets @
100lbs x 25 reps

Seated tricep machine
3 sets @
150lbs x 20 reps

[Family_guy]

How have I missed this log!?! This is an awesome positive log. Great work Cowboy. I’ll be following now!

[Cowboymike]

How have I missed this log!?! This is an awesome positive log. Great work Cowboy. I’ll be following now!

Glad to have you aboard brother! ;0)

[Cowboymike]

Day 317 & 318
12.0mg aromasin
125mg TestC
1 - 5-HTP
1 - Tyrosine
3iu hgh (3iu @ 4pm)
200mcg T4



In a haze mang.. in and out of consciousness.. I’m doing good not over eating. But I’m definitely getting food in.. mainly eggs, low carb wraps, protein bars, cottage cheese, ground turkey, sliced mushrooms, olives... and just kind of mix matching the ingredients into different meals lol...

Healings going good I think. I jumped off the pain meds yesterday and I’ve experienced time lapses/blackout style loss of time about 4 hours after the last dose... but I’m waking up slumped over and staring into the floor and crap... pretty strange. I nod off in the recliner and snap awake like i am falling and just catching myself. Whatever they stuck in my throat, they effed the whole thing up. Never been so sore and cut up in my mouth like that before....

I can’t seem to get hydrated. Though I’m pounding over 2 G’s a day plus hydration packets and adding 4g sea salt

Anyway just checking in. Hopefully I’m not / have not, been making a fool of myself.

But other than passing out 500 times a day and not sleeping good, the surgery site looks fantastic and already there’s a significant improvement on hearing, even through the layers of packing.

Hope y’all are having a killer weekend so far!

[Obs]

Day 317 & 318
12.0mg aromasin
125mg TestC
1 - 5-HTP
1 - Tyrosine
3iu hgh (3iu @ 4pm)
200mcg T4



In a haze mang.. in and out of consciousness.. I’m doing good not over eating. But I’m definitely getting food in.. mainly eggs, low carb wraps, protein bars, cottage cheese, ground turkey, sliced mushrooms, olives... and just kind of mix matching the ingredients into different meals lol...

Healings going good I think. I jumped off the pain meds yesterday and I’ve experienced time lapses/blackout style loss of time about 4 hours after the last dose... but I’m waking up slumped over and staring into the floor and crap... pretty strange. I nod off in the recliner and snap awake like i am falling and just catching myself. Whatever they stuck in my throat, they effed the whole thing up. Never been so sore and cut up in my mouth like that before....

I can’t seem to get hydrated. Though I’m pounding over 2 G’s a day plus hydration packets and adding 4g sea salt

Anyway just checking in. Hopefully I’m not / have not, been making a fool of myself.

But other than passing out 500 times a day and not sleeping good, the surgery site looks fantastic and already there’s a significant improvement on hearing, even through the layers of packing.

Hope y’all are having a killer weekend so far!

Heal fast brother.
You are an inspiration and a tough man.

[Family_guy]

How long have you been on the growth for?

[Proximal]

Watching GOT Cowboy? What do you think?

[Obs]

Hope you are ok cowboy.
Fucking sucks how much you go through this shit.

[Cowboymike]

Just quick update, still in hospital from the hernia/esophagus surgery. This ones been a bitch... I think theyre going to have to go back in and fix whatever needs fixing. As nothing going in goes on through, everything gasses up and comes back up... doc said I had a weird stomach with lots of extra tissue so it wasnt just a cut and dry pull down, wrap and secure procedure... Im probably in the most excruciating pain I’ve ever felt in my shoulders ever in my life... I think if I got impaled into both shoulders, right through the meat and through the joint... thats what this would be like... thats all because of gas and a diaphragm... the brain sends the pain to the shoulder... jackass.. but I guess its better than the diaphragm which I need to breathe with... the only fuggin thing you get for pain is liquid Tylenol lol... which Im all for if it works... but the working part is literally just under the its working wire... so you still get to feel some, but you can just mentally manage it... just like my rodeo days actually... when pain pills were a no-no period. Had to keep the mind tight side up. Especially If you planned on riding the next go-round... so we just stocked up on 800mg ibuprofen and pounded 6 at a time and got through it... now I feel like a bitch. If Im going to be honest... making rethink some of my crutches Ive been choosing the past 6 years... and maybe Ive had different motives all along... anyway Ill ponder that later... they dont have working WiFi here and of course why would Verizon work in a major city like Portland lol cocksuckers...

Ill check in when it lets me post and catch up on some reading when it lets me connect

[Obs]

Just quick update, still in hospital from the hernia/esophagus surgery. This ones been a bitch... I think theyre going to have to go back in and fix whatever needs fixing. As nothing going in goes on through, everything gasses up and comes back up... doc said I had a weird stomach with lots of extra tissue so it wasnt just a cut and dry pull down, wrap and secure procedure... Im probably in the most excruciating pain I’ve ever felt in my shoulders ever in my life... I think if I got impaled into both shoulders, right through the meat and through the joint... thats what this would be like... thats all because of gas and a diaphragm... the brain sends the pain to the shoulder... jackass.. but I guess its better than the diaphragm which I need to breathe with... the only fuggin thing you get for pain is liquid Tylenol lol... which Im all for if it works... but the working part is literally just under the its working wire... so you still get to feel some, but you can just mentally manage it... just like my rodeo days actually... when pain pills were a no-no period. Had to keep the mind tight side up. Especially If you planned on riding the next go-round... so we just stocked up on 800mg ibuprofen and pounded 6 at a time and got through it... now I feel like a bitch. If Im going to be honest... making rethink some of my crutches Ive been choosing the past 6 years... and maybe Ive had different motives all along... anyway Ill ponder that later... they dont have working WiFi here and of course why would Verizon work in a major city like Portland lol cocksuckers...

Ill check in when it lets me post and catch up on some reading when it lets me connect

Shit brother that sucks.
Hope the pain meds work.
Push through, yell at the doctors if you gotta. You arent a surgery newb so they best listen

[Old Duffer]

Hang in there man. Thanx for taking the time to update us

[GirlyGymRat]

Stay strong! [emoji1317][emoji1317][emoji1317]

[Proximal]

Damn Cowboy, you got this!

[Obs]

Been a while bud... Worried about ya

[Cowboymike]

Been a while bud... Worried about ya

Update..:

Got home Friday! Fuggin A!! Lol what a ride!

Slept and been drinking soups with protein added in, like crazy... I just kind of make it, start drinking it, I pass out for 45min or so, wake up, drink some more, pass out.. repeat process...

Havent been on pain meds but still a little sluggish in the brain... I feel much better this morning though... so Ill venture into relaxing, catching up, napping, drinking soups and not worrying about a damn thing today ;0)

[Cowboymike]

I appreciate you all and your kind words and support!! Sincerely!! I’ll get my way around catching up today for sure. ;0)

[Cowboymike]

Results from cut... I did screw with lighting in my pictures because my camera sucks.. as you can see in my starting cut cycle pics.. but of course I have originals on hand ;0)

I’m posting these as just part of my log update.

Starting cut pics:





End of cut:




Beginning pics from when I first started:




But now I look like this: but it’ll heal lol

[Charlie67]

Sorry to hear about your recent problems Cowboy, but your progress has been awesome throughout the years. I hope things get back on track soon!

Best,
C-

[Cowboymike]

Sorry to hear about your recent problems Cowboy, but your progress has been awesome throughout the years. I hope things get back on track soon!

Best,
C-

Thank you brother! Definitely ready to put it all behind me and launch into the next phase of my development! ;0)

My motivation hasn’t died that’s for damn sure. To the moon!

[Obs]

Always upbeat...
Amazing buddy

[Proximal]

Holy crap Cowboy, amazing transformation!

Keep healing buddy.

[Cowboymike]

Day 319 through 325

Hospital, surgery, recovery

[Cowboymike]

Day 326

Upon wake up
75mg TestC
12.5mg aromasin
3iu HGH


Meals:
Meal 1 & 2 (shake)
Calories: 1,031
2 servings whey concentrate, unflavored
4tbsp pbfit powdered peanut butter
1 serving amazing grass super green superfood
8oz Coconut water
16oz Isopure anytime protein, Apple Melon
8oz Aloe Vera Juice
3.5oz Açaí
1 medium Chiquita Banana
6oz baby spinach
2tbsp MCT oil
1 scoop organic juice berry


Meal 3
Calories: 840
2 cups powdered mash potato, Applewood smoked bacon
4 cups creamy corn and roasted red pepper soup



Meal 4
Calories: 525
2.5cups organic Mac n cheese (blended)


Meal 5
Calories: 80
Strawberry jello



Meal 6
Calories: 190
2tbsp Jiffy all natural peanut butter



Plus vitamins: (crushed pills or liquid only)
Liquid Turmeric,
Crushed L-Tyrosine,
Crushed 5-HTP



Healing up nicely I do believe. I finally got some better sleep last night. I had to lay on my stomach to get it though and just said fug it on the pain... I need sleep so bad I kinda dont give a damn about pain right now...

I went to my ear doc follow up. I can friggin hear!!! Hallelujah!! I have some healing to go but man I can friggin hear!! It was dead dead. Now it’s not.. so I’m grateful for that! Can’t wait for the hearing test at end of the month.. so hopefully as the swelling subsides and I progress further along my hearing will improve... now we just need to cross fingers they got the whole cholesteatoma out this time so it doesn’t grow back and screw everything up again... doc said he put in a new hearing device as well...

Other than that my logs going to be pretty boring as I’m healing lol.. but I made a commitment and I’m going to see it through.

I’ll be on trt dosing now. I’ll also be doing the hgh still.

I can’t swallow pills so my vitamins pretty much will be what’s easiest to hide crushed in shakes or in liquid form.





Daily gratitude item:
Grateful for the intense epiphanies I had in the hospital. For the revelations and wisdom that was bestowed upon me during my alone time.... I’ve been given a new pair of glasses in which to view life through. I can’t even explain wtf happened to me. But it was a spiritual experience for lack of better words to describe... I’m still processing everything, but man... wow... I’ve been reborn in my mind, heart and spirit...



8:00pm
50mg metoprolol (BP meds)
.5mg Ropinirole (Restless legs)




Total water consumed until now:
1.75 gallons



Total Calories and Macros today
Calories: 2,666
Protein: 148
Carbs: 337
Fiber: 35
Sugar: 95
Fat: 92



Workout:

I made it one full walk around the block today.

[Obs]

Great to hear you are doing better brother

[Cowboymike]

Great to hear you are doing better brother

I’m going for a fast bounce back... I’m already way ahead... so I’m being tactful in my healing, I want to progress more rapidly than the average timeline.. I’ll be eating a cheeseburger in a couple weeks and I’ll be back in the gym murdering anything under 15lbs until the fire is unbearable in my muscles... i can do shoulders and arms without aggravating my core... slow and controlled... Im striking out with body weight movements to find chest or leg movements that don’t activate the core though... I asked the doc, he said don’t push it, but 15lbs net, is my limit.. so 15lbs in my hands and nothing to aggravate my core... fuck 8 weeks to eat regular and or step foot in the gym... that’s insane. Can’t do it.

Obviously if I feel any tugging or activation, I simply just stop immediately... I’ll start with lowest weights first to test the waters... I will wait until Monday though... 2 full weeks since they sliced in and the wounds won’t open..

I’m already effin stir crazy... the weather is perfect and I can’t go into the forest?!?

[kelkel]

Just getting caught up on your thread as I was away on vacation. Damn you've been through it but I'm glad to see you have a positive attitude. It means everything.

Never give up.
Never quit.

[Cowboymike]

Day 327

Upon wake up:
50mg Metoprolol
500mg L-Tyrosine (crushed)
400mcg T4 (liquid)
1 serving liquid Turmeric
3iu HGH
40mg Nolvadex, SpartanPharma



Meals:
Meal 1 & 2 (shake)
Calories: 1,031
2 servings whey concentrate, unflavored
4tbsp pbfit powdered peanut butter
1 serving amazing grass super green superfood
8oz Coconut water
16oz Isopure anytime protein, Apple Melon
8oz Aloe Vera Juice
3.5oz Açaí
1 medium Chiquita Banana
6oz baby spinach
2tbsp MCT oil
1 scoop organic juice berry


Meal 3
Calories: 380
2cups Creamy corn and red pepper
soup
1cup black cherry jello


Meal 4
Calories: 525
Macaroni and cheese 2.5 cup


Meal 5
Calories: 400
Applewood bacon and smashed potatoes


Meal 6
Calories: 440
4cup Creamy corn with roasted red pepper soup



Mellow day today... I’m following my timeline to the letter even though I know I could do more... not jumping ahead, not falling behind. Everyday as I laid it out, sticking to it...

Got my errands run, new pair of glasses on order, car tuned up and ready to start doing some taxi-cab work to help me bring in a little extra supplemental income...

Got out of the house to enjoy some sun.. ended up walking a mile.. my body was beat lol... seriously I’m a little surprised how much that walk drained me...



Daily gratitude item:
Im grateful for a healthy and fast healing body.



8:00pm
50mg metoprolol (BP meds)
1 - 5-HTP Plus (crushed)
500mg L-Tyrosine (crushed)


Total water consumed until now:
1.25 gallons


Total Calories and Macros today
Calories: 2,776
Protein: 143
Carbs: 415
Fiber: 37
Sugar: 152
Fat: 80

Workout:

Walked 1 mile around the neighborhood