Everybody starts out at the gym and says they want a bigger chest and a smaller waist or whatever - just get a little bigger and firm up, most say i dont wana work out too much just in case i end up like one of those bodybuilders (as if you could get like that by accident )

but soon it becomes adictive and you just want that little bit more muscle, and become a little more cut - you are never satisfied

i am half way thru my first cycle and my friends (blokes and girls) are saying dont get any bigger or you will look gross

women like a firm body and a bit of muscle but less face it when you start to look like dorian yates, the women think it looks horrible - not all of them but the large majority of them
i show my girlfriend a bodybuilding magazine and she will refuse to look, says it makes her feel ill

i absolutley love bodybuilding and admire the proffesionals a great deal, i keep telling myslef - a little bit more muscle then i'll just maintain - but it is never enough - i would want to be a proffesional myself - if i had the genetics

its just addictive and i love it - but i dont want to be scaring off women (i love them too much)

do you know where i'm comming from?

i think i need a pshychiatrist - help