Oatmeal69's 4th Cycle TEST-E / TREN-A Diary / Log

[oatmeal69]

Interesting read. I always enjoy reading other peoples experiences. Thanks, Oatmeal!

You're welcome. I'm so glad I kept a log of this cycle, as well as my last one here. It REALLY helps improve one's strategy.

Agreed for sure on all. The pump is gone, just the way it is. Even on TrT type dosage you feel nothing like running real juice.

Dammit, a girl I haven't seen in a year told me I look skinny now.
My BF is much lower, but I sure don't want to look skinny! I HATE being an ecto.
Like I said, I've lost 10 pounds since the cycle ended. I sure hope it's all just water and fat.

[oatmeal69]

Still holding at about 10 pounds lost. I'm 5 pounds over where I was at the beginning of my cycle, and a bit leaner, so that's good.

I have been having major emotional issues since the end of cycle. Depression, sadness and anxiety. I had thought it was all dependent on a relationship that has run into trouble/ended (I'm in limbo), but as I look back my reactions to it and how I feel are greatly magnified. Relationships have always been a weak part of me and effect me strongly, so I wrote it off to that, but I think ending my cycle right when it started has had some effect.
My sex drive is also non-existent over the past 3 weeks.

I've been following my PCT religiously, but without blood work, there's no way to gauge my E2 and Test levels. My PCT treatment ends in two days. I know nothing without blood work, but I sure hope my Test comes back soon!

[< <Samson> >]

Posted this on your other thread, but - man, my shit sounds just like this. Emotional BS

[oatmeal69]

End PCT today.
I have some of my Libido starting to return. I'm still sad as hell, but I think it's more because I've been through the wringer with a girl the last few weeks. It's over now, so I can start to heal, but it's been pretty sh*tty.
Note to self: Try to time PCT for GOOD times, not BAD!

I was using Welbutrin a couple years back. It definitely smooths out the highs and lows, but I stopped taking it because it kinda robs you of drive and ambition too. Might get back on it though, feeling low, sad and anxious SUCKS!

[oatmeal69]

I'm currently at 160 - 162 pounds. I started my cycle at about 158. I am definitely leaner and more cut up now though, so I'd say I probably put on 4-6 pounds of muscle, while getting rid of a few pounds of fat. I'm hoping as I come out of PCT and recover my natural test, some of my gains and fullness will return. I'd like to be at about 165# as a final.

[oatmeal69]

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[< <Samson> >]

Good to hear man. . . I'm getting there slowly also. But, I'm pushing my PCT for 6 weeks total.

[VzThunder]

Great log man! Keep up the good work

[oatmeal69]

Thanks, VZ.
I stopped PCT a month ago. I stayed in the gym on my same routine for the last month, and have managed to keep most of my strength gains. I did put on a little bit of fat, because I upped my calories and fat intake. I will work on getting that off very soon. My goal was to keep as much muscle as possible during PCT.
I'm thinking that I can start dropping fat now, I'm guessing natural test has mostly returned. I've been off cycle for 2.5 months.