i need major help (life saving help) seriously
so hey its a friday night and im chillin at the house alone, had a few drinks tryin 2 drown the life away.......... my situation would be this, im 6'5" tall and just 142 pounds yesssss 6'5" @ 142 pounds been that way my whole life and here i am 2 days after hittin the age of 25.......... ive got a friend who has brain cancer it will probably turn fatal but see he was 6'1" and thin b4 he got it then for his begining treatment right after he was diagnosed with the brain cancer they put him on some sort of steroid and he SERIOUSlY gained about 30-40 pounds in 2 weeks, he didnt work out while on it considerin the circumstances but ever since that point 2.5 years ago i have been overly curious about steroids, now i want to lie and say ive been weight training for the suggested 2-3 years that is site suggests b4 takin roids but i wont bullshit you, i havent. but i will say this, i have went 3 months doing a complete healt freak phase that eliminated all toxins incuding caffeine, i lifted responsibly (meaning not too much not too little) i lifted heavy. i stayed hydrated i did the protein shakes, i did the nitric oxide booster, the creatine and i kept my diet resonably acceptable for a body builder but hmmmm all that work and i gained hardly anything. yeah try and lecture me and say i did something wrong, say my diet is wrong say i didnt lift right, i will scream "bullshit" because im confident i did it to the best of my abilities and with my genetics i am indeed a hard gainer (dont make me remind you of my natural weight vs height stats. So what im asking of this forum is for your advice, i say this is life saving help because its my last stand, I've got the balls to do what it takes reguardless of the consequesnces that may or may not happen and hey my tits can get big or my nuts can shrink but thats the good thing about america i guess, there's sumtin called doctor patient privledge ;) so throw it at me im open to any advice that will add the pounds and not knock my goals (my weight becoming 175lbs) within 6 months (or more) help?