Dannyboy1981

Well here I am about to start out on a new adventure and new outlook on everything. As it is a new blog and I have never written anything like a blog in the past I think it only fair that I give some history about me and where I’m coming from and what I’m trying to achieve.

I used to be a healthy and fit youngman up until the age of 21 I was a Kayaking instructor, living and working outside everyday. They where some of my fondest memories and I made some fantastic friends who will always stay with me for the rest of my life (although I am terrible at keeping in touch!).

I then settled down in a new city where I began working in an office. Unfortunately for me I didn’t carry on with my Kayaking and soon begun to gain weight. Before I knew it my lifestyle of cider drinking and kebab eating was taking its toll.

I went from being healthy lad to 26 stone (165kgs) in five years. I did however enjoy most of this as I was with a young lady and things where alright….
Well nothing lasts for ever we went our own ways and I was left rather obese with terrible eating habits and not much else going on.

It was time to make a change in my life and to sort out the things that were getting me down. For me my main problem was my weight.

I used to think back to the days when I had my washboard tummy and was outside working everyday. Young foolish and full of life!

I needed to lose weight!

I needed to make some positive changes.

And this is where my journey started.



My first steps

Well it was about time I got off my ass and done something about it all.

My weight was getting me very depressed and as some of you reading this may well understand the damage it does to your confidence is very hard to explain. I no longer felt as if I was attractive and living in my own little world of self hate.

Sitting back and looking at my life it was sad. I had to get out of it and start making myself the way I wanted to be. I think we all have a little vision in our minds of what it is we should look like and what it is we should feel.

I do feel that self-image and self-esteem depends largely on how other people see us and it takes a lot of egotism or willpower not to care about the opinions of others.

However, loving yourself the way you are and making a positive change in the way you see yourself for me was my very first step. Getting over the idea that people really care about the way you look (evidently the majority or people don’t) was hard but really important. It gave me the strength to walk into the gym for the first time.

Wow

Having lots of fit muscle men doing there weights grunting and pumping. Attractive women wearing there tight shorts on the running machines bits wobbling just how God designed them to wobble (I say God I’m sure some are helped by surgeon’s)

Intimidating!

Here I am standing in the gym massively over weight a bead of sweat running down my head wearing a t-shirt that reads “Hunk for Hire” and a pair of gym shorts with an elastic waistband. This was a whole new world to me.

So it began

It was a on off thing really I didn’t really give it all the commitment that it needed so the results where not quick. I used to get myself to the gym three times a week 40mins of cardio work and then a weights set. This was not doing much in the way of weight loss at all but I was feeling better and healthier which I guess was part of my goal.

So I decided to try a “fad” diet the diet I tried was the “Cambridge Plan” as it goes I lost a hell of a lot of weight very very quickly. I warn you thou I got cranky and was not pleasant person to be around. The diet supplies all your food meals and drinks for the time you are on it. While I was still dieting and going to the gym I began taking a more active interest in a large passion of mine, MMA (Mixed martial arts)

The diet was making me unhappy mostly as I really enjoy food and it stopped me eating anything. So I stopped. I found it very tough getting back into eating real food again after 8 weeks of not eating real food my body wanted to hold onto everything I put back in so slowly I began to gain the weight I lost on the diet. I was very careful with what I was eating too!

With my new found passion for MMA I began training. At first it was once a week while still keeping up with my gym stuff and swimming the weight soon started going down. I became more and more into my MMA and started looking around to see what other training was available. I begun training more and more frequently.

Now training for MMA may sound easy but I would like to assure you it really is not! The guys I began training with where all Professional Fighters and trained very hard. They didn’t mind the fact that I was over weight and unfit as long as when I trained with them I trained as hard as I could and didn’t make any excuses. “The boys got heart I give him that” is what I would often get told 

So that work ethic has stayed with me. Over the last year I have been training MMA as much as possible and even cancelled my gym membership as for weight loss the cardio exercise I was going was unsurpassed being pushed by my now close friends to go further. The drive to continue losing weight, gaining skills in MMA were my goals.

That almost brings us up to date. I now aim to train 5 – 6 times per week in various different martial arts. I have got my weight down now to 101kgs which is close to my target weight. Having lost so much weight over the last 18mths I have been left with some lose skin and although I do feel much more confident I have a new hang up about my body.

I love my sport and I really would like to start competing this year. Now its very standard to compete in nothing but shorts and no t-shirt or anything like that. Now there is my problem. I am still very body shy, if that is a word.

So here I am now. What I want to archive is not a body building Adonis but a good strong body with some nice muscle definition and to help satisfy my own confidence and self image.

I don’t expect quick and easy results and I have a lot to learn but that’s why I am here. Currently my plans for where I go next is what I am struggling with and would really like some advise. The reason why I am interested in using steroids is that I have worked hard and would like some help along the way now. I guess I am seeing it as a reward for what work I have put in so far, rightly or wrongly that’s why I am opening myself up to everyone’s feedback, ideas, and constructive suggestions as to what and where I should be going, doing, eating and taking.