QUick and last bullshit UPDATE....
I am sril alive and kicking foral my supporters....you know my granmada ded and to watch m dad cry was one of the hardest things ththave ever happened to me. His last rmemberence of her was wthe last few years when she looked like a totaly different person. SO, long story short. I dont wanna die looing like I do now....i cut a cord and I am done playing ths ****inggame. I've said it befroe but this is the real deal. I am sayng on 250mg of cyp a week and eaitng whatever the **** I feel like it every two hours/ I weight measily 6'2 and 155. SO its a loooongnever ending cycle......so, whatever I feel like having I will have... I will measure proten...nothing else....my mirrors are covered and I am going to town whever I am hungery. No shakes except pw....StufI haventhad in YEARS! Lat night I had sandwhches, lazana, rice, you name it....today ive had 3 sandwhiches already on to of my oats and flank and rice.....Im going to the movies soon......prob. popcorn, jujus, whatevr the **** i feel like...call me idiort, all me stupid call me fat, fine....sorry boys if you disown me you rhink I;m dumb,,,,its from the old school lee priest style I guess.......this game is over...153 is ridiculous and I realized this when I benched 135 for 6 reps.......Ill start a huge cycle at 180lbs and will hopefully be there in 1 month.........sure..half may be fat, but with some test, maybe I'll get 40% fat.....Its just ging to be my number#1 chore..I fel soooo miserable, you have no idea.....shaking, cold, its over... .......I havent looked in the mirror in 3 days and thats what stopped me before.....test will help me keep he fat at bay....took some time off work to just fouces on eaint and training...I will be on stage......those corn beef sandwhiches were so ****ing good lsdt night, I could eaten 20........240 here I come....stage BOUND! I PROMISE!!!