I will tell you what is strange and annoying, you cycling at 154lbs and being told over and over again not to cycle and sort your diet out.
http://forums.steroid.com/anabolic-s...tique-mee.html
http://forums.steroid.com/questions-...rst-cycle.html
You will lose every lbs you have gained, just give it a few weeks after the cycle ends, you have been told this over and over again but you don't listen so why even ask questions.
You have no idea what your doing, how to eat or how to train - hard truths but unless you sort yourself out your going to be in this circle of gaining and losing all your gains for a long time...
I am trying to help you even though you may think I am not.....