It is clear you are no where near ready to cycle.
1-Your bro gained ALOT of fat to put on 53lbs in one cycle
2-You dont even know what test is and are considering using test suspension that requires multiple injections each day.
3-Your diet is 100% crappy for you to be at the weight you are at currently
4-You need to learn how to train adn eat and not use steroids as a crutch