Please critique my HRT regime. Done the research, but need green light from veterans

[D7M]

how long ago was your last cycle?

what did it consist of?

what was your pct?

I really don't know why someone who is not competing would want to go on HRT that young.

[Yug Def Fub]

how long ago was your last cycle?

Two years at least.

what did it consist of?

Test and Deca

what was your pct?

The Anthony Roberts PCT. Got it from this site.

I really don't know why someone who is not competing would want to go on HRT that young.

Well, here is the thing: I have two choices here. Either I don't ever touch steroids again, which in this case I would have low-normal levels the rest of my life. Or I go on HRT. I don't think there is any middle ground. If I cycle again, then it will likely take me a couple years to recover (like it did my last time around), so I'd lose all gains (and feel cruddy for that long period of time due to low test levels) so what is the point of cycling at all? It seems to me that it is the choice between cycling or not cycling ever again. What I am saying is: I don't think I can recover from another cycle of test, since the last cycle shut me down so hard. What you think?