Welcome! MBMETC is correct, if you only do one cycle, you will lose those gains over time. It is, indeed, why most people won't only do one and then call it quits. I've tried to explain it, like this, to my stubborn friends, who think after one cycle they are gonna be huge forever.....try to think of it as a set of steps. You do a cycle and you get bigger. This will happen. Then when you come off, expect to shrink, and lose some of it. You'll still be bigger than you were when you started, but not as big as you were at your biggest. Then you come off, and hopefully you come off correctly, and you let your body resettle. Who knows, if your diet is on point, you may put on decent size without the juice, during your "off" phase. Then you do another cycle, and you get even bigger than you before. Then you come off, and you shrink again, so you aren't as big as you were at your biggest, but you are still bigger than you were when you first started, and that cycle repeats itself. Take two step forwards, and then one step back to see results. Does this make sense?
Before you consider doing any kind of gear, it sounds like you need to do some more research though. Especially revolving around your PCT, which is doesn't look like you addressed in your original post. The way you come off cycle, and what you take in your PCT, will greatly affect how much of your gains you keep, will keep you from crashing, etc......
Also, it looks like your diet is lacking. What kind of juice you take all depends on what kind of results you want. To get big, you have to feed yourself. The steroids alone won't do it. I recommend doing a lot of research and then post your planned cycle, and your planned PCT and get feedback then. After you get your diet in check, of course
