We have had a love and hate relationship over the years but I was always trying to help you and steer you in the right direction, I know its hard to tell someone at 19yrs what he is doing wrong, because they all seem to know it all but like you have realised when it was to late its not a pretty site when you have issue with your HPTA at such a young age.
Are you on HRT now?
what are your levels?
Or are you on your own HRT because of not going to the doc's?
where do you see yourself in 10yrs time with your problems?
do you have a good doctor? i know its hard to find one in the UK who understands