first of all, sorry you had to go through so much pain, but i am glad you are feeling much better now. i looked at your blood work and your problem is high E2 and SHBG, at 200 mgs ew you should be at around 1600 on total test and about double or more on your free Test. high e2 can cause loss of libido, water retention and many other sides. i take it your only doing testosterone?! no AI and hCG? these two meds can reduce your e2, raise your testosterone and reduce your SHBG. welcome here, we will do what we can to guide you to receive a better and more proper protocol. keep in mind that a complete TRT protocol consists of testosterone, AI and hCG.