Pete buddy...I'm going to say it like it is and you may decide you no longer love me after words but so be it.

From your explanations and info you have provided, you have an alcohol problem and it's effecting your ability to have a good relationship with your wife. I'm glad you were able to self reflect as Gearbox said. Now you need to FIX the problem and then work on the relationship. Trying to both at the same time may be more than most ppl can handle.

You are so right about us all being screw up and failing. We are human. It's the way we handle our failures and short comings that define us as men. Handle your failures and short comings....become a better man, become a better husband and father. This is what we should all strive for. Remember...a relationship most often gives back only as much as you put in to it.

Feel free to PM anytime you need to talk!!!!!!!