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[Euroholic]

It took awhile to adjust back to normal life..everything in prison is based on the fear of violence and how you react to situations is the way people judge you..for the most my experience was decent..fed prisons in the United States are pretty nice places..we had weights and decent facility's ..the Feds seized every asset I have in the world though so re starting my life in my 30's financially has been tough..I keep on keeping on trying to better myself everyday and leave all that in the past and make a new future..

Bad luck mate. Get back out there and earn again. and don't let anyone hold you back. Ive never had jailtime just fines

[KINGKONG]

Bad luck mate. Get back out there and earn again. and don't let anyone hold you back. Ive never had jailtime just fines

Thanks, doing the best I can working 50 hours a week plus school..still getting gym time in and meal prep pretty much only time I stop is when o sleep..it's all I can do for now..

[Euroholic]

Thanks, doing the best I can working 50 hours a week plus school..still getting gym time in and meal prep pretty much only time I stop is when o sleep..it's all I can do for now..

Take solace in the fact that it is better to live like a king for a day then a peasant for a lifetime.

[DocToxin8]

Thanks, doing the best I can working 50 hours a week plus school..still getting gym time in and meal prep pretty much only time I stop is when o sleep..it's all I can do for now..

50 hours a week plus school man, you can't do any better than that IMHO.
At least I couldn't, (if I could that, which I doubt), so you should really feel good about that.

My time was minimal, barely just saying hello and out.
What I thought was so fucked was the fear of collective punishment.
This was a prison many would look at like a hotel,
but there was always this shit that if someone didn't behave they would close down the rec. room (basically a pool table in a room, but still),
and my biggest fear, close the weight room.
While that wouldn't last long in reality, it felt enough to get really annoyed with other inmates that didn't place the weights back after use, or hit the wall of the guards room with the football, etc.
Even after my very brief visit there I remember going to the gym, and some dude didn't pick up his weights after him, and I immediately thought I gotta fuck him up cause they'll close the gym if he keeps on like that.
I realized within a couple of seconds how disturbed that thinking was, and that I was in a gym where I payed money to train, and they didn't close their gym because of mess.

Coping with such shit and trying to get life started again isn't easy.
I don't think people understand how little time is needed before thought pattern changes.

A thought experiment;
There is a cruise ship with luxury beds, nice rooms, and even some shit to do, but the rules are that you stay on this ship and are not allowed to leave, and it will go in circles in the middle of the ocean so the view is gonna be the same, and all the people working there will only interact with you in a strictly professional tone. And while there are some other passengers there's also rules as to how you can interact with them, especially restricting intimacy/caring/emphasizing between them.
I think that even with those stipulations many would feel quite disturbed if they were at that ship for one year. Two years and up, and when you get to like 5 years and more I think many would have problems ever returning to a normal society.

I'm not saying I want lenient sentences for rape and such, but 5 years for anything drug related, which is basically just avoiding paying taxes if you look at it.
Disregarding those with such low morale they "recruit" young ignorant (as in haven't a clue as to what this stuff does) users. Only way to deal with those are with self justice in these environments, something that seems lacking as fear of attracting police overrides the instinct to protect other people.

I'm tired, end of rant.

[Euroholic]

50 hours a week plus school man, you can't do any better than that IMHO.
At least I couldn't, (if I could that, which I doubt), so you should really feel good about that.

My time was minimal, barely just saying hello and out.
What I thought was so fucked was the fear of collective punishment.
This was a prison many would look at like a hotel,
but there was always this shit that if someone didn't behave they would close down the rec. room (basically a pool table in a room, but still),
and my biggest fear, close the weight room.
While that wouldn't last long in reality, it felt enough to get really annoyed with other inmates that didn't place the weights back after use, or hit the wall of the guards room with the football, etc.
Even after my very brief visit there I remember going to the gym, and some dude didn't pick up his weights after him, and I immediately thought I gotta fuck him up cause they'll close the gym if he keeps on like that.
I realized within a couple of seconds how disturbed that thinking was, and that I was in a gym where I payed money to train, and they didn't close their gym because of mess.

Coping with such shit and trying to get life started again isn't easy.
I don't think people understand how little time is needed before thought pattern changes.

A thought experiment;
There is a cruise ship with luxury beds, nice rooms, and even some shit to do, but the rules are that you stay on this ship and are not allowed to leave, and it will go in circles in the middle of the ocean so the view is gonna be the same, and all the people working there will only interact with you in a strictly professional tone. And while there are some other passengers there's also rules as to how you can interact with them, especially restricting intimacy/caring/emphasizing between them.
I think that even with those stipulations many would feel quite disturbed if they were at that ship for one year. Two years and up, and when you get to like 5 years and more I think many would have problems ever returning to a normal society.

I'm not saying I want lenient sentences for rape and such, but 5 years for anything drug related, which is basically just avoiding paying taxes if you look at it.
Disregarding those with such low morale they "recruit" young ignorant (as in haven't a clue as to what this stuff does) users. Only way to deal with those are with self justice in these environments, something that seems lacking as fear of attracting police overrides the instinct to protect other people.

I'm tired, end of rant.

This can be said about being in the military as well. I mean have a look at our grandfathers/great grandfathers being In the world wars the stuff they did. My grandfather was in a battle with just under 2million casualties. How are you meant to just slip back into normal life when you've been to hell and back? When i went to rehab the doctors told me i had all these diseases/disorders. But what i have been exposed to in my life is nothing like they had to endure i like to think about that when i feel blue. That there is plenty of men out there who have endured more then what we in the modern day could even imagine.
To put things in perspective Look at the battle of the somme. 60000 casualties in ONE day. With 20000 of those killed. Could you imagine if something like that happend today? One solider dying makes the news but 20000 of them in a day? Thats something the modern world can not fathom. And that was only 100 years ago

[KINGKONG]

50 hours a week plus school man, you can't do any better than that IMHO.
At least I couldn't, (if I could that, which I doubt), so you should really feel good about that.

My time was minimal, barely just saying hello and out.
What I thought was so fucked was the fear of collective punishment.
This was a prison many would look at like a hotel,
but there was always this shit that if someone didn't behave they would close down the rec. room (basically a pool table in a room, but still),
and my biggest fear, close the weight room.
While that wouldn't last long in reality, it felt enough to get really annoyed with other inmates that didn't place the weights back after use, or hit the wall of the guards room with the football, etc.
Even after my very brief visit there I remember going to the gym, and some dude didn't pick up his weights after him, and I immediately thought I gotta fuck him up cause they'll close the gym if he keeps on like that.
I realized within a couple of seconds how disturbed that thinking was, and that I was in a gym where I payed money to train, and they didn't close their gym because of mess.

Coping with such shit and trying to get life started again isn't easy.
I don't think people understand how little time is needed before thought pattern changes.

A thought experiment;
There is a cruise ship with luxury beds, nice rooms, and even some shit to do, but the rules are that you stay on this ship and are not allowed to leave, and it will go in circles in the middle of the ocean so the view is gonna be the same, and all the people working there will only interact with you in a strictly professional tone. And while there are some other passengers there's also rules as to how you can interact with them, especially restricting intimacy/caring/emphasizing between them.
I think that even with those stipulations many would feel quite disturbed if they were at that ship for one year. Two years and up, and when you get to like 5 years and more I think many would have problems ever returning to a normal society.

I'm not saying I want lenient sentences for rape and such, but 5 years for anything drug related, which is basically just avoiding paying taxes if you look at it.
Disregarding those with such low morale they "recruit" young ignorant (as in haven't a clue as to what this stuff does) users. Only way to deal with those are with self justice in these environments, something that seems lacking as fear of attracting police overrides the instinct to protect other people.

I'm tired, end of rant.

Iam with you completely Doc..were I was at everything had a certain order you did this because it made life easier on everyone around you..we were all stuck in there together and the only thing keeping everything running right was the fear of violence..violence was a everyday occurrence but that was because ppl fell outta line they wouldn't put the weights in the right place (like you said) or owed ppl money,wouldn't be on top of there hygiene..you washed your hands EVERYTIME you left the bathroom or you could get punished you brushed your teeth every morning and every night and showered constantly so people wouldn't have to smell you..the rules were simple enough but people still strayed and things got hectic.were I work we have a lot of people who are gross they come to work smelly or don't wear deodorant or will walk right into you when you are walking down the halls things that would have got them hurt in prison and at first it was hard to be around it all..the drive back to my hometown was strange enough then I get this job with all the mutants for awhile it was hard keeping my mouth shut and my head down..Iam just doing whatever I gotta to get on with my life now I let ppl do whatever they want and I just choose not to associate with them...one of the weirdest things was being around really small or fat people..people in prison are in shape that's part of survival..if there fat coming in 6-8 months they have lost it..I've seen people lose hundreds of pounds..

[Euroholic]

Iam with you completely Doc..were I was at everything had a certain order you did this because it made life easier on everyone around you..we were all stuck in there together and the only thing keeping everything running right was the fear of violence..violence was a everyday occurrence but that was because ppl fell outta line they wouldn't put the weights in the right place (like you said) or owed ppl money,wouldn't be on top of there hygiene..you washed your hands EVERYTIME you left the bathroom or you could get punished you brushed your teeth every morning and every night and showered constantly so people wouldn't have to smell you..the rules were simple enough but people still strayed and things got hectic.were I work we have a lot of people who are gross they come to work smelly or don't wear deodorant or will walk right into you when you are walking down the halls things that would have got them hurt in prison and at first it was hard to be around it all..the drive back to my hometown was strange enough then I get this job with all the mutants for awhile it was hard keeping my mouth shut and my head down..Iam just doing whatever I gotta to get on with my life now I let ppl do whatever they want and I just choose not to associate with them...one of the weirdest things was being around really small or fat people..people in prison are in shape that's part of survival..if there fat coming in 6-8 months they have lost it..I've seen people lose hundreds of pounds..

A bloke i know of actually prefers prison. He does not have to worry about anything inside he reckons. He finds it easier

[KINGKONG]

A bloke i know of actually prefers prison. He does not have to worry about anything inside he reckons. He finds it easier

He's institutionalized I've met many men like that over the years they get out start panicking and commit a crime or break probation to get them back were there comfortable..it's kinda sad

[Euroholic]

He's institutionalized I've met many men like that over the years they get out start panicking and commit a crime or break probation to get them back were there comfortable..it's kinda sad

It is sad. It defeats the purpose of rehabilitation