
Originally Posted by
MuscleScience
I get what you're saying OB. I dealt with a lot of anger issues growing up. Mainly because I was picked on as a kid for being the smelly country kid. Over time I learned to channel those emotions into a motivating factor. You have already expended energy so might as well make use of it in a positive manner.
Rather ironically, I have gotten so good at repressing my feelings that ultimately it zapped away the essence of what pushes me forward. Now I don't repress nearly as much, getting back into bodybuilding again is what has helped me relearn my focus and drive. I look at the weights as a problem I need to meet head on and tackle. As opposed to what I have been doing in appeasing my problems with lack of emotion instead of drive.
When I say emotion I am not talking strictly anger, it runs the spectrum. I was repressing everything. I turned myself into a real life Vulcan but without the logic. I have talked about it in other threads but I lost the ability to be human in some manner. Life is about experiencing both the good and bad the world offers. Instead I treated my life like I was a robot. No heart, no soul, no love, no hate.