Read the Successful First Cycle thread at the top of this forum. What we are all referring to is that you don't seem to grasp the consequences of running AAS without sufficient knowledge.

Are you running HCG?
An AI?
Have pct in hand?
Pre cycle blood work?

Besides all that you will never make gains eating 2-3 times per day. Make it 6 times per day. Eating is step one, way before steroids. If you can't eat, you won't gain. It's that simple.