My first cycle. Will log each pinning day. AI questions

[The Deadlifting Dog]

Again, I’m getting really frustrated with this. As I reviewed my logs, turns out I’ve only gained 12 damn pounds in 8 weeks. At 3600 calories a day, and 172 pounds, I walk around in a constant state of nausea. Considering the amount of water and fat I’ve assumingly put on as well, I don’t think these gains have been much more than I could have gotten naturally. I’m really considering stopping this entire cycle after this week. Am I right that this hasn’t resulted in much in the way of gains? I’ve been working my damn ass off in the gym and added 1200 calories a day to my diet.

12lbs in 8 weeks isn't bad at all.
How much were you expecting?

[JCUSN]

12lbs in 8 weeks isn't bad at all.
How much were you expecting?

I just thought it was supposed to be a lot more than that. I’ve read people gaining 20-30 on first cycle. With only 12 pounds gained, I’m guessing only 6 of that is actual muscle. Seems I could have done that naturally. No?

I also haven’t felt that rage/thirst in the gym people speak of, nor has my libido been in overdrive either. Granted, I’ve still got 3.5 weeks left.