Same here. Its a disease.
I busted ass to get away from taking orders. I finally got there to make less and work harder often.
I need the stress and love trying to do shit no one else would in my shoes.
Ha. My therapist told me I’m addicted to the adrenaline rush from the chaos of my work life. And it would be the death of me if it didn’t change. Well at least I’ve got that going for me. Fuck.