Paranoia or just too much agression?

[lovbyts]

I think. . . when a psychiatrist is presented with a patient who says that everyone in their neighbourhood is out to get them. . . I think 99 times out of 100, the psychiatrist concludes that the patient is paranoid and has delusions of persecution.

Four summers ago, I moved into a council estate in the countryside in Northern Ireland. On my first night, there was a knock on my door at 4am, and two men were standing side by side at my door smoking cigarettes. I didn't know who they were, what they wanted, or if it had anything to do with me being from the South (and therefore perceived to be from a Catholic background).

Not knowing if these guys had come to kill me, I called the police, and the police arrived about 15mins later.

It turns out that the two guys were just two young men from across the road who were up late at night drinking, and they wanted to have a drink with me.

A few people in the housing estate took great exception to me calling the police into the area, and a few of them banded together and decided to make my life a living hell, doing shitty little things all day behind my back like taking my clothes of the line.

Over the next month, things escalated and escalated and escalated, until I finally got a personal visit from a well-known politician who -- some might say -- is also terrorist.

If I had seen a psychiatrist during this time, I almost certainly would have been diagnosed with delusion and paranoia. The truth however was that my suspicion of my neighbours had a very solid grounding in fact.

The point I'm trying to make here is that it can, at times, be nearly impossible to determine if a person is paranoid unless you actually live with them and follow them around all day. Psychiatrists don't live with their patients, and they seldom follow them around.

I don't know your story or if people are out to get you, but all I can say is that things like chanting, meditation and prayer help to keep a calm and level mind. I meditate for an hour every morning before breakfast.

Now I want to know what happened with your situation...

[Kimbo Almond]

Now I want to know what happened with your situation...

I ended up going into residential rehab for addicition just to get the hell out of there.

Now I live 40 miles away, but I've been putting a lot of thought into how I'm going to requite the person who bothered me the most out there. There's a long country road leading out to the block of houses, it's a totally blank road with fields of grass on either side, and I'm thinking of faking an emergency on that road in the hope that he'll stop his car and get out.

I had another idea though.... there's a a quiet walk lane at the back of the block of houses, it leads to the local shop.... I could visit him on his walk to the shop.

I'd love to go into more detail but I don't wanna get banned or suspended again.