Using "these" times to better myself

[BG]

That’s plan now - better myself & don’t get sick or die

Prob is that it’s self change - I haven’t wanted to change myself for a long time. But, I suppose - when this Corona shit hit, I def went on a tad too strong of a bender - but, now - shit, I’m officially over so many things & still focusing on doing a better job keeping my head out of the gutter - fuck, so much harder than it is said


I guess I personally needed all of that - but, damn - it’s been a rough ride. . . At this point, I just want this shit to blow over well

Hahaha I went on a little one myself and that was what got the ball rolling.......nothing like a nice bender to give you a reality check !

[< <Samson> >]

Hahaha I went on a little one myself and that was what got the ball rolling.......nothing like a nice bender to give you a reality check !

I suppose, huh


Rock bottom to myself reaches quickly - Being, lit isn't acceptable to me on a regular basis < not any more, I walk over things that I use trip on - but, with a ton of effort


It's hard af to keep everything we have going on rn together - I just make it look easy. . . . If I stop & think about it too long it just gets worse. . . . Trying my best to use this time for something positive. . . But, man oh man - the demons I deal with

[BG]

I hear ya, I consider myself at "pro" status these days when it comes down to getting down. It was a while since last time and I had an itch. I just feel like shit for days and then it takes me another week to get my stomach right..........so I dont go to far.

Ya for sure, demons suck, they seem to hang on and not let go.

I suppose, huh


Rock bottom to myself reaches quickly - Being, lit isn't acceptable to me on a regular basis < not any more, I walk over things that I use trip on - but, with a ton of effort


It's hard af to keep everything we have going on rn together - I just make it look easy. . . . If I stop & think about it too long it just gets worse. . . . Trying my best to use this time for something positive. . . But, man oh man - the demons I deal with

[< <Samson> >]

I hear ya, I consider myself at "pro" status these days when it comes down to getting down. It was a while since last time and I had an itch. I just feel like shit for days and then it takes me another week to get my stomach right..........so I dont go to far.

Ya for sure, demons suck, they seem to hang on and not let go.

Depends on the itch, mine root deep & at this moment seem quite life long - kinda like juice, here to stay

Just keeping them all in check seems to become a full time job at times

It’s aight - I take nothing back - so far, at least

[BG]

I take nothing back - so far, at least

We cant dwell on the past, it just stops us from progressing in the future, I did it for 37 years. We need to just take good from the bad.